bitch.

I’m here if you need anything babes 

Okay I just wanted to let you guys know that I’m leaving here for a couple more weeks, I’m stressed as fuck, finals are coming up and I’m not the most prepared, I’m so sorry I know I should be communicating with you guys more and I’m very sorry for that but please be patient I’ll try and be back as soon  as I can ❤️ love you all so much and hope everything is going great for you guys 

ANGELLL

i sincerely give up. my mom talked to me saying that im “not right” and how im accepting a c in an AP coding class. i just have no fucking motivation for this and she basically said that im “too average” for a kid and that i need to be smarter? fuck this man a c is not going to fuck up my life, for gods sake i had a 4.0 gpa last year what the fuck? 

ok i know i should be gone but i really need to know this. i recently took my PSAT 10 for my career so i can go to a community college for two years full time even though i’m still a high school student. i studied for it, took practice exams, ect ect. i got test scores today and did pretty well, got a 1000; 550 on reading and 450 on math, i just have to take another test for math to get into the community college program. my friend texted, she has no idea what to do for her life, didn’t study, was forced to take it, and doesn’t care about anything really. and she got a 1120, she passed both tests. so as a mentally insane person, i got pissed off-why does someone who try so hard, work for what they want, and yet still not do well enough, and a person who doesn’t even know what they want in life except move to London and marry a rich dude gets a  higher score, i sincerely don’t fucking understand

im leaving here for a while, don’t know when i’m coming back. 

now tell me why i want to cry on halloween and i am seriously feeling so dull and empty, what the fuck is going on with me…

Do you wanna talk love? Are you okay?

I read your bio as “or making out with friends” honestly not the worst my dyslexia has done…it’s done so so much worse ಠ_ಠ

Why the fuck do my parents always fucking think think that im forcing myself to eat? Or that i dont eat enough? God damn it it really all started when i made too much fucking bread. And she said why did i make so much bread and i said “well just save it” and then goes on a rant about how no one eats it so i stayed quiet cause what the fuck else am i supposed to do? And then i started eating slower cause i fucking can and my mom comes up to me and says “hey dont over eat if your full” like fucking hell i wasnt full yet and she keeps thinking i see more than what i can eat which is not true, and i feel so fucking stupid because then i fucking hate my self and think im eating too fucking much and then i starve myself and then you know what fucking happens? They worry i dont eat enough and i fucking hate it. And its one reason why i hate eating bigger meals cause then i do eat too much and fucking hate myself for it which leads to starving and its a goddamn cycle. A couple years ago, maybe 2, my parents and my brother caught me developing an eating disorder. The only logical thing to do in my fucking head was deny it but that made it worse and then i started accepting it and seeing signs and now all i fucking want to do is lie about  eating and not eat at all because that would make my life so much fucking better, only if life didnt have to be this fucking hard about eating?