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Rewriting an old fanfic of mine – one I wrote when I was 15 and unpublished. I feel like it will be better this time.

I just read Chapter 16 of Haunting Adeline (the gun scene) to my fiance and he looked so mortified. Bahahaha

My Call of Duty fanfics are getting a lot of love *sniff sniff* I am so happy.

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I don’t know why I’m so stuck in my head today. It’s like everything is too loud and too quiet at the same time. I feel like I could cry, but the tears won’t come — just this heavy ache sitting behind my eyes. I keep looping those lyrics in my mind: “Oh well, got everybody talking in this hellhole / I'm the devil, Dante wrote me into his inferno / Here we go, again.” - Special by Gabbie Hanna. It hits too close. Like I’m the villain in a story I didn’t mean to write, like I’m trapped in a cycle of chaos and self-blame I can’t claw my way out of. Healing is hard, but I guess this is part of the process.

Wrote 68 chapters and an epilogue of a Call of Duty Ghost fanfic in 2 days Not sure if I’m proud or in need of an intervention. 
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/396013802

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I'm feeling unwell today, but I must give a shoutout to the person in the Circle K parking lot who almost hit me. As I walked into the store, I was in the line of sight of a vehicle that seemed to be in a hurry to floor it while backing up. I quickly moved, still in their line of sight, and avoided getting hit. However, they had the nerve to honk at me. No, you're the problem, hun. Luckily, I'm now home and resting. My momma would be proud of me for controlling my anger.

I am gay for u

"And now, if I figure this out
          Apart from my beatin' heart
          It's a muscle, but it's still not strong enough to carry the
          Weight of the choices I've made
          I told you I'd ride this out
          It's gettin' harder every day somehow" – Ashley by Halsey