bebe94

- Small rant/hope this will help others - 
          
          I have suffered with chronic social anxiety all my life. It's crippling when it comes to making friends. Somehow over the years I've managed to slowly get there and make a few close ones despite everything. However I will never know what it's like to have a best friend. To text freely, to talk about anything on your mind or to hang out whenever. The feeling that I constantly annoy everyone or that I never fit in is always there. Whispering in my ear whenever I talk to anyone or hang out with them. 
          
          Social anxiety doesn't just mean you can't go to public places (of which does also effects me) it effects anything to do with socialising. Speaking to someone, hanging out with them, group conversations, pictures, parties. All of them. Usually I wouldn't talk about it but it seems that people just don't understand what it's like. so the littlest comment or the smallest actions can send me tumbling down like a goddam tidal wave. So yeah, I read and I write to express myself and feel my confident. If anyone suffers the same thing they would know what it's like. But just remember there is always family and if your lucky enough to get out of your comfort zone then that special someone you can lay your head on. 
          
          My books help me and I hope that shows. I just wanted to get that off my chest seeing as I had a bad day with it today and if anyone else has then I hope that my books can make them feel better. 
          
          Sincerely Bebe94  

Today sad news has presented itself in a death of an actor that cannot be replaced. Rest in peace Alan Rickman, you have acted in some of the best movies that have graced the big screen, played in classical romances and famous books (of which I've read a million times in my last 17 years). Your movies which consist of Harry Potter, sense and sensibility, Sweeney Todd, Robbin hood, Galaxy quest, a little chaos, love actually, A promise, Rasputin, Mesmer, dark harbour and Romeo and Juliet (1978) will forever be watched. 
          
          Goodbye Alan Rickman. 
          
          And I also want to pay tribute to David Bowie of which I have been listening to and watching since I was 7. He was a true pop culture icon in both his music and society. His place in my favourite movie The Labyrinth will forever be cherished as well as the massive collection of his albums I have.
          
          Both died 69 of cancer days apart. This year has only just begun but two stars have lost there brightness and have gone to a better place. 
          
          
          Rest in peace to the both of you 
          
          

When you realise your addicted to a book and stay up to all late hours of the night. Goddam my obsessive reading habits ！(◎_◎;)

Heya everyone! Summer break is boring ;-; thank god I have books to get me through it though :'3 but to those who read go give this author a follow and make sure to check out her books  !!!!! -> @_bluemist_ <- !!!!! 

*small rant* 
          
          Only small but significant. 
          
          Isolating a person and blaming them for something they did not do is wrong on so many levels, almost a form of bullying really. It shouldn't be done on any platt form of social media and especially were eyes can see. It's disappointing really when I see this occurring here and on other forms of media, especially when it happens to ones self. A personal attack is enough without the added weight of social media on top of it. Keep your friends close but not so much that they stab you in the back. 
          
          I just want to spread awareness to this sort of thing because it happens far to often. It's cowardice to sit behind a screen and do that to another human being. Be safe on social media and don't let cyber bullies get the better of you.
          
          Awareness is vital. 
          
          *end of rant* 
          
          

having fun?
          

Does anyone want to Co-write a book? Holiday boredom and inactive updates on my favourite books is killing me  (;-;) 

I have update Orrin Dragon Academy!!! Go check it out :D 

That stressful moment when non of your books can update because watt pad is failing to update anything *cries in corner In fetas position* T^T 

@Domily89 Now that exam block is over I can update （≧∇≦） look for an update sometime this afternoon! (⌒▽⌒)