beebubss
dm me if you want my discord ig
beebubss
beebubss
WATTPAD DELETING DM?? HELLO??? WHO'S DOGSHIT IDEA WAS THAT??
beebubss
okay i have the now rare desire to write on here lol. feel free to tag me to any roleplays you'd like to continue and i will try to get a reply out!! or if you'd like to start one, feel free to hmu!! we can do ocs or mha
beebubss
grief is so weird. it's always there. i always feel it. it's a weight on my chest, a pit in my stomach. it's the breath of air i can't suck in. but it's always there, and while i always feel it, it actually hits the hardest at the most random times. the tears come at most random things. once they start, they don't stop.
my dad is still alive but dementia has taken his mind. he's alive but that's all he is. and i am already consumed with grief. i am full of so much regret, pain, and dread that i don't know what to do with myself.
TheCherryMountains
@beebubss ) such a complicated grief, whatever happens I’m sure you’re loved and it’s an honour to have loved and been loved. I have no clue how you must be feeling but your pain is valid and you can get through this.
beebubss
i've started role-playing on twt and it's so fun
beebubss
will try my best to get replies out tonight
beebubss
dementia is such an ugly disease. my dad and i certainly weren't perfect, but he's my dad. the man who taught me to walk and picked me up off the floor, i have had to watch him lose his ability to walk. i will never have another conversation with my father again. i will never hear another joke, another life story, another word of advice ever again. he's alive, yes, but that ugly disease has taken my father.
he was supposed to teach me how to drive. he was supposed to see me graduate college whenever i decided to go. my life is just truly beginning, and his is ending, and it's not fair. he won't get to see the person i will become.
i try so hard to remember our last conversation but i can't. and it kills me that i can't even remember the last thing my dad said to me.
having to grieve the living is so cruel because the pain is only prolonged. i am hurting so bad. i have cried every day for the last week. i don't know what to do or how to cope. my chest stays tight, i'm constantly nauseous, and air feels scarce.
beebubss
hi, so sorry for my absence. things have been not great. my dad is declining and it's been so hard to watch and take care of him. i promise i will get to replies when i can
Strawberry_Shortie_
@beebubss oh darling that must be so hard. I wish the best for you and your family. <3
beebubss
drivers seat by maddss buckley has devastated me
beebubss
madds buckley i am begging you to reconsider, i can't handle another dabi/todoroki song. i still haven't recovered from brother
(this song has already devastated me and it's not even out. the todoroki family has actually ruined my life)
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTLFysqWN/
beebubss
@Strawberry_Shortie_ this song is going to absolutely destroy me when it comes out i literally do not need another reason to cry over this family
Strawberry_Shortie_
@beebubss I was quite literally just watching THAT episode from season 6 and I saw your message board post and I was dying. And her music captures it so well. Aaahhh!