beetle

I LOVE ZAZAAAAAAA

HI GUYS

therapy sucks and its not working.

I miss writing about eruri </3

GUYSSSS IM IN THERAPY♡♡♡

so... this is a vent/life update.. ignore if you want lol.
          
          I wish I had the motivation to finish my fanfics, but I dont think that writing is my hobby anymore. it could be the depression though, and I'm pretty sure it is since I still like the idea of writing. hopefully when I talk to a therapist next week, we can figure things out and I can get better :,)
          
          I'm planning on moving out of my abusive household this summer cause it's a big issue and the main problem in my life obviously LMAOAOAOOA
          
          bruh I swear every wattpad writer will disappear from the face of the earth at some point and come back a year later like "lol hey guys, just got out of the psychward!!!" or some tragic thing like that 
          
          anywayyzzzzz ya I love you guys ♡♡♡♡ love all the followers who have been here since I got wattpad 2 years ago you guys are the OGs

I'm 16 now

IM WRING RN YAYYYYY

Hello to my 200+ followers. I adore you who read my books and vote on them, and I am so so sorry for my prolonged absences. I find it quite difficult to write much these days, despite it being my most liberating hobby. It has been nearly a year since I last updated my books I think, and I've definitely expanded my vocabulary and style of writing since then. I know that if I were to get back into it, I would be a better writer than I was before. I'd like to blame my terrible mental health for my lack of updates on my books along with my insane writers block. I've definitely hit a wall. I know I'm not getting any younger as my school work piles up and my days begin to fill with more responsibilities, but hopefully one day I can start to work out a new chapter for Promise or Sunflowers, or even something small for my Eruri short stories. I must also say, I'm beginning to lose interest in attack on titan along with eruri mainly because it is so exhausting how excited I get for those things. I just dont have the mental capability to maintain my favourite interests and the hobbies that come with it. I hate to be so down, but it feels like I'm losing myself. Hopefully I can get help and return to finishing my fanfics.
          
          With love, beetle :)

alright pals listen up 
          i’ve realized that my book sunflowers is so stupid because mental hospitals are for those who are a danger to themself/others, not those who are “strange”  i am so mf stupid so uhhh i might delete it??? or not. i’ll just continue it. i really wanna finish Promise. i’m so sad my raging love for eruri is dying faster than my brain cells so hopefully by writing about it more will bring it back :) i still love them ofc but i’m fading away from my aot obsession overall and ITS SO SAD BRO  anyway i might just continue writing short stories in my eruri stories book :) that way i can still write but not have to worry about finishing a whole ass story iykwim