beetlewheat

My books looking at me log in 2 years later:

beetlewheat

so... this is a vent/life update.. ignore if you want lol.
          
          I wish I had the motivation to finish my fanfics, but I dont think that writing is my hobby anymore. it could be the depression though, and I'm pretty sure it is since I still like the idea of writing. hopefully when I talk to a therapist next week, we can figure things out and I can get better :,)
          
          I'm planning on moving out of my abusive household this summer cause it's a big issue and the main problem in my life obviously LMAOAOAOOA
          
          bruh I swear every wattpad writer will disappear from the face of the earth at some point and come back a year later like "lol hey guys, just got out of the psychward!!!" or some tragic thing like that 
          
          anywayyzzzzz ya I love you guys ♡♡♡♡ love all the followers who have been here since I got wattpad 2 years ago you guys are the OGs

beetlewheat

Hello to my 200+ followers. I adore you who read my books and vote on them, and I am so so sorry for my prolonged absences. I find it quite difficult to write much these days, despite it being my most liberating hobby. It has been nearly a year since I last updated my books I think, and I've definitely expanded my vocabulary and style of writing since then. I know that if I were to get back into it, I would be a better writer than I was before. I'd like to blame my terrible mental health for my lack of updates on my books along with my insane writers block. I've definitely hit a wall. I know I'm not getting any younger as my school work piles up and my days begin to fill with more responsibilities, but hopefully one day I can start to work out a new chapter for Promise or Sunflowers, or even something small for my Eruri short stories. I must also say, I'm beginning to lose interest in attack on titan along with eruri mainly because it is so exhausting how excited I get for those things. I just dont have the mental capability to maintain my favourite interests and the hobbies that come with it. I hate to be so down, but it feels like I'm losing myself. Hopefully I can get help and return to finishing my fanfics.
          
          With love, beetle :)

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