I'm so sorry you had to leave to get peace but I hope you'd be back better and stronger than before.
A lot of people in the world process emotions differently and it's just what's unique to them.
But I hope you'd be able to move past the hates and negativity and channel your strength towards improving and become a better person, author and wattpadian.
I'll be waiting on this app for you to come back.
I wish you all the best life has to offer and pray you get the closure you need.