Xavier Canillas-Velasquez is a hopeless romantic. A romanticist. He is always hurt and frustrated in life and always put this to writing. Let the words heal and destroy you, it is the only way to freed your heart and mind from all the worries. Never think of tomorrow. More important is now and how could we pass the present. It is a sacrifice.

To the person who hurt him the most:

I will impetuously write you on the pages of my misshapen memoir without holding back. You will be forever immortalized by the ink I spilled during those nights when I am supposed to be sleeping. All the minuscule details about you, even the slightest habit you do that no one ever notices will be engraved. You will embody infinity.

I will dauntlessly share you to the world. You will play a part in every story that I will make. People will love you, and you will be a part of them. I don't think I'm ready for that, I want you all to myself but this is my nature- I turn the people I love into words. I would never apologize for that, I would never apologize for something that irradiates my soul.

I will play with your darkness and make it even darker; I will scorch your burning mind. This won't satisfy me for I will solidify your tears my love, using a pen and a paper like a murderous dagger. I will slaughter and resuscitate you over and over again. I'm not ready to lose you yet.