benxjeyy

Hi guys! It’s been a month but I just wanted to pop in because I am going to be deleting my books. I originally was just not going to download this app again and leave them up but I’m honestly embarrassed and hurt with all of the accusations going on. The fact that I had spent over a year supporting and defending people who are getting accused of doing horrible things absolutely destroys me and I’ve been in a weird mood all day. This type of situation just proves that you truly don’t know who people are and that they only put out into the world what they want you to see. Like I’ve said before, thank you guys so much for supporting me and every other writer on this app. If people do continue to write their stories on them please don’t send them hate! It takes a long time to come up with ideas for books and people work very hard on them. I personally have unfollowed both benji and jorge on everything, I honestly don’t even want to hear of them right now, but if people want to believe them and support them still, let them! We don’t need any arguing going on even if everyone is divided. I truly do hope the accusations are false and that benji and jorge can figure all of this out but if they aren’t I truly hope they can realize what they did was wrong and grow as people. Again, thank you, and everyone in the fandom who has ever sent me a text, or been in a groupchat with me, it truly means a lot! 
          
          If you want to keep up with me on any of my main social media’s my tiktok is: @/myterriblelife and my instagram is: @/_myterriblelife

Also to add on, in no way am I trying to invalidate anyone's feelings, I am also a victim and the video didn't personally affect me because I had no clue what the anime was even about, but that doesn't mean it didn't affect others and to the people that it did I am truly sorry and I hope that you aren't affected by it for too long. But to add onto Benji's apology, I believe he is truly sorry he just didn't know how to express it or put it into words. I mean he obviously loves each and everyone of his supporters, he would never do something to personally trigger anyone of them. I hope he gets better and I hope everyone who was affected by it gets better from it as well. My post before this was more aimed to the people who hadn't been through anything and were telling Benji how to say his apology, when to say it, and mocking it because it is not for you to personally judge. Anyways this is the last thing I will be saying/posting and I hope you all have a better day tomorrow

Haha here we go again, I'm sure you were all expecting this but if you weren't, surprise, I'm leaving. I was truly trying to stay so I could finish His Sickness but at this point, I can't. I left Twitter a couple of days ago because all I ever saw was drama on there and I was being used so I left, but I logged in on my laptop today to see Benji's spam and he had made an apology and then deactivated and it honestly makes me sick that he got pushed to the point of doing that again. I don't know the full story because I was absent for some of it, but seriously he's 19. No matter how mature and grownup you want to think he is, he isn't. He's honestly still a teenager who makes mistakes and wants to follow the trends he thinks are fun, and that's exactly what he did, but then his own fandom attacked him for it which is honestly just sad. Everyone in the fandom constantly says "teach each other don't cancel" but will go out and cancel your own stan and I honestly can not be apart of a fandom that will do that. Benji is obviously a person who takes everything to heart, you can always tell he feels terrible when he messes up but the fact that he has thousands of people reminding him that he messed up probably just adds to how bad he feels. Imagine if you were in his shoes, having everyone tell you how badly you messed up when all you want to do is post fun videos on social media for people to enjoy. Should Benji have put a trigger warning on his video? Absolutely, but there were hundreds, maybe thousands of other videos being made that didn't have trigger warnings on them, and he obviously wasn't aware of the anime and what it was about. He was following a trend that he thought was harmless at the time and didn't think to do research on it because again, it seemed harmless. But anyway all I'm saying is that one day he might get pushed to the point where he doesn't even want to post on social media because he's scared and I really don't want that to happen.