beomyawnzjun

has anyone ever had a friend that they really love so much? like you would do anything for them and they would too and then when everything's going better than ever they suddenly start arguing with u so u forgive them. but it happens so many times that they've absolutely broken your heart and u can't move on. like you would've never expected them to do that so u end ur friendship. and now when ur vulnerable u need them the most but u can't tell them or else you'll fall into that infinite pain cycle again. and then u blame yourself even tho they were toxic and manipulative bc they made you feel heard. as if you're special. as if you're the only person that they've ever cared for. and it's all platonic but u wish u could spend ur life with them.