RIP BERNADETTE

I think I hit the point in life where, I'm just done. I cried I fought, I tried, but everything is crashing down, my demons are screaming louder, trying to eat away the rest of me. And this I'm not going to fight back.

So I'm sorry to my unknown lover Sorry that I can't believe that anybody ever really Starts to fall in love with me Sorry to my unknown lover Sorry I could be so blind Didn't mean to leave you And all of the things that we had behind

I'm sorry that I can't get out of bed I'm sorry that my head's always a mess I'm sorry that I missed your call For the third time in a row I promise that I care much more than I show Don't get carried away, no I'll only let you down Certain circumstances got me feeling low Don't take it personally Talk some sense into me I've been feeling senseless Acting selfish i Hate myself so fucking much I'm out of touch But I can see through all the lies That they've been selling me Quit telling me you know they know what's best for me My patience being tested see In the parking lot of the high school That I went to Thought I hated it But its real shit when your friends leave And you're back home With the same dreams
          
          
          

What wrong bestie you seem upset I'm worry about you

I wish that I could go to sleep I don't know should I go or should I stay
          I'm tryna to keep myself alive Knowing there's a chance it's all too late

So many mornings, I woke up confused In my dreams, I do anything I want to you My emotions are naked, they're taking me out of my mind Right now, I'm shameless Screamin' my lungs out for ya Not afraid to face itI need you more than I want to Need you more than I want to Show me you're shameless

You got me sippin' on something I can't compare to nothing I've ever known, I'm hoping That after this fever I'll survive I know I'm acting a bit crazy Strung out, a little bit hazy Hand over heart, I'm praying That I'm gonna make it out alive The bed's getting cold and you're not here The future that we hold is so unclear But I'm not alive until you call And I'll bet the odds against it all Save your advice 'cause I won't hear You might be right but I don't care There's a million reasons why I should give you up But the heart wants what it wants The heart wants what it wants You got me scattered in pieces Shining like stars and screaming Lighting me up like Venus But then you disappear and make me wait And every second's like torture Hell over trip, no more so Finding a way to let go Baby, baby, no I can't escape The bed's getting cold and you're not here The future that we hold is so unclear But I'm not alive until you call And I'll bet the odds against it all Save your advice 'cause I won't hear You might be right but I don't care There's a million reasons why I should give you up But the heart wants what it wants The heart wants what it wants The heart wants what it wants The heart wants what it wants
          
          

Put your make-up on Get your nails done Curl your hair Run the extra mile Keep it slim so they like you, do they like you? Get your sexy on Don't be shy, girl Take it off This is what you want, to belong, so they like you Do you like you? You don't have to try so hard You don't have to, give it all away You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up You don't have to change a single thing
          
          

I got a girl crush
          Hate to admit it but
          I got a heart rush
          Ain't slowing down
          I got it real bad
          Want everything she has
          That smile and that midnight laugh
          She's giving you now
          
          I want to taste her lips
          Yeah, 'cause they taste like you
          I want to drown myself
          In a bottle of her perfume
          I want her long blonde hair
          I want her magic touch
          Yeah, 'cause maybe then
          You'd want me just as much
          I got a girl crush
          
          

When you're gonna stop breaking my heart? I don't wanna be another one Paying for the things I never done Don't let go, don't let go to my love When you're gonna stop breaking my heart? I don't wanna be another one Paying for the things I never done Don't let go, don't let go to my love