berro_merro

I hate fever. My brain felt like it got beat up into a dough. My eyes BURNS. And my FUCKASS BODY collapses every time I get out of bed. And I lose appetite way too quickly. Like dawg let me finish my donut ╥﹏╥

berro_merro

Unstable mentality cured. I bought some stuff for a cosplay I'm planning with my friend for our hang out next month. We're planning to go to a different mall than previous hangouts we've done. I just hope no one knows who we're cosplaying as and asks for pics. I'm too embarrassed. 
          
          Anyways, I think I'll start writing again on August. Or publish new chapter on August, as in writing and leaving it on draft. I'd probably have a packed schedule for this month and next month.

berro_merro

Mentally unstable, drained, don't have enough sleep. I apologize but I need longer time now to write new chapters for the stories. I have arts to do and animation videos to finish. Yes, I know I could've taken all the time I needed rather than staying up late. But I just love to finish it as soon as possible so that I could make the next animation I thought of before I forget my own idea. It's like a spiral of new ideas. When I didn't finish it fast enough, I'd forget.
          
          I know I should be taking better care of myself, yes. It's my fault, yes. This unhealthy habit is dumb and stupid but it's another fresh, desperate attempt to try and earn money. I can't even get up for school anymore. Not in the 'I'm awake but won't get up' type, but sleeping in 'til 11am then just bed rotting until 5pm before I start to draw again at 8,9 or 10 pm. 
          
          I started to hate one of my bsf(we're a trio) and my little sister. Don't get me wrong, I love my bsf. She's innocent, means no harm and really loves to help. But she's slowly starting to piss me off with questions with obvious answers or telling people something I do that I don't want public to those I know in real life. Like the one time I let her see a wip animation video I made and she asked her little brother if he wants to see it. No hesitance. Or the other time she asked if I'm okay when I'm obviously posed off at something or someone. 
          
          I love her, really. But lately I get bad vibes with her. I take hours ignoring her message before answering it. Maybe it's just the cause of my lack of sleep or maybe I really start to have real mental problems. How dare I hate on such a fragile being. Someone with family issues. Someone that seeks freedom. Someone who just genuinely care for me. How dare I. It's been three weeks since I last went to school. And she was only worried and missed me sitting next to her in class. I feel like a jerk.

Rozemq

@berro_merro please take care of yourself and figure things out, don't stress yourself out and focus on your problems! Don't worry about making new chapters just take a break and figure things out for yourself<3
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