thinking back to that day, it still seems so surreal. whenever i'm watching performances, practices or any video with him in it on you youtube, or just seeing him- makes me realize ,again, that he's actually gone. the thought of death always seems to escape my mind, and when i remember i just doesn't feel real to me that he's actually gone,,, and not coming back. i don't want to acknowledge it still. you'll always be apart of shinee, no one who remembers you will ever forget you. never. - i miss you jonghyun, happy birthday.