so a rant because i’ve been crying since tuesday.
i feel like my bf doesn’t love me anymore. like he says he does. and he told me that if he says it, he means it. so there’s that. but one of our mutual friends sent me a screenshot of snap map and it showed him at another girls house.
ok. he has female friends and im genuinely okay with that. i haven’t heard about this one, but that doesn’t matter, i told him before that he can hang out with anyone he wants, i trust him.
and i do! but. this girl. she’s really pretty. she’s younger than him. she goes to a private school. she’s honestly stunning, everything i wish i was.
and i’ve felt this way before when he’s hung out with his female friends before. i get jealous, ill admit it. but i know it’s because of my insecurities with myself; it’s nothing to do with anything he’s done.
but ever since she sent me that screenshot, ive been overthinking everything. he doesn’t snap me as much. maybe it’s because of school. it’s not like he’s been all that active on snapchat while not answering me. it’s ok. right?
i don’t know. i’m just going crazy i think. i’m so tired and my head hurts. and i can’t. stop. thinking.
because i feel like he deserves better. and he could definitely do better than me. but i dont want to break up. and i dont want to bring it up because i dont want him to think that im being possessive or needy or high maintenance. i dont know if he’d actually think that. but im scared.
anyway thats all.