bestarrinatyou

Dear followers 
          	I am so dreadfully sorry that you've had to wait so long. I've been going through a bunch of stuff but that shouldn't be an excuse but, it's my best one. I start things left and right and I feel terrible about it. I can't finish anything because I'm not permanent myself. Or at least that's what my mind tells me. I have lost interest in writing and for some reason that feels like I've lost interest in a part of me. One big thing is depression. It's torn me up from the inside out taking the things that make me, me and making them into my worst fears. What brought me joy now brings me anxiety. I have this constant fear and I don't know how to describe it. I don't know. 
          	Love, Lenny

bestarrinatyou

Dear followers 
          I am so dreadfully sorry that you've had to wait so long. I've been going through a bunch of stuff but that shouldn't be an excuse but, it's my best one. I start things left and right and I feel terrible about it. I can't finish anything because I'm not permanent myself. Or at least that's what my mind tells me. I have lost interest in writing and for some reason that feels like I've lost interest in a part of me. One big thing is depression. It's torn me up from the inside out taking the things that make me, me and making them into my worst fears. What brought me joy now brings me anxiety. I have this constant fear and I don't know how to describe it. I don't know. 
          Love, Lenny

bestarrinatyou

Hello you guys! Alright so I plan on updating my prince Caspian fan fiction. I am so thankful for you guys putting up with the maybe year wait on the next part. But sadly enough, this will be the last part. It will be long so don't worry my dears. ~Gabriel

bestarrinatyou

I'm a poor confused soul, wandering this world alone. The light at the end of the tunnel is near and I have to say goodbye. Goodbye to the friends I made, so long to the girl I knew. High school is a new challenge for this boy, me, Gabriel. I have no clue when I'll be able to update but, I wish I had something but I don't. I can't force words onto a paper, I've never been much for faking it. I love you guys so much and I'll leave you off with some lyrics. 
          "Time is changing so am I, 
          Who knows if it's for the better? 
          I feel better inside
          Facing my demons 
          Facing the fear
          My heart is clear." -time
          Is changing by Jump the barrier

five-o

i saw a lot of comments of yours on a story (I dont remember its name) and damn I loved them. 
          i really like you (if that sounded wrong well im into guys just fyi) and.. um.. I would enjoy talking to you.
          
          it's 2 a.m. here and i drank champagne and my english is worse than usual.
          so yeah bye.
          happy new year

bestarrinatyou

I find it weird that some of my followers and I are extremely different. Scrolling through my news feed I see Harry Styles fan fiction and 5SOS books.  If you scroll through my stuff it's Andy Biersack and Steve Rogers. I just find it odd that suck contradicting tastes follow each other over a mutual love.

bestarrinatyou

I am so sorry I haven't updated in forever!! I've been in the land of the broken hearted for far too long and I'm sick of it. I need to get over him but, I can't. I am an awful girlfriend because I am not over my last relationship; that was five years ago. "Why dose it hurt so much?" 
          "Because it was real." 
          This line from the battle of five armies broke me inside. I miss him so much and I can't get over him. No amount of medication will make me happy. Only love will. I need someone to love. I need someone I can put my faith into. If any of you wish to talk I'm right here with open arms because I don't want anyone to go through what I have been through. I love all you guys and I don't deserve you.