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@bi_weirdo_398 I read that entire message and now I’m honestly questioning her. 1st, why do you keep bringing ts up T_T  - and 2nd, if u dont mean ts why tf do you keep saying it T_T

@bi_weirdo_398 I'm so sorry for leaving you on read . I just genuinely didn't know what to say and forgot (not me responding a month later lmao sorry). I assume (?) that this has been... partially resolved? Thought out? I don't know. If she's giving red flags then you definitely should not encourage any sort of relationship with her, if her romantic feeling are getting in the way of a platonic relationship, even if you *did* like her back.
            I have never had to reject someone, so... Can't really help there. Maybe just... Explain your feelings? I don't know?
            Sorry again for ditching you. I hope you weren't upset or anything.

@duckie_da_duck ME NEITHER MY DUDE!!!!
            Cause like she's always like we'd make an awesome couple or some shit like that eventhough I've made it clear quite a few times that I don't even view her like that anymore and is always like you'd be an amazing gf and I'd live to date you and then she's like but physically I'm not even attracted to you and I don't even like you LIKE A GURL PICK A FUCKING SIDE PLEASE!!!! 
            And like tell me how do I politely reject this girl cause I need to and she acts weird when I tell her that I found a girl I saw on the way home cute bruh T_T

@bi_weirdo_398 So as I was saying we still talk, and now she has a huge ass crush on this girl who's in most of her classes, and by huge ass I mean this girl is full on crazy for her type shit....
            But with the way she's talking about the girl I think she's a player and kinda thinks breaking people's hearts and causing drama is a fun game type shit (She's one of those playgirl mascs who think they're cool just because they play the guitar)....
            And like she wants to confess and I'm like go for it (keep in mind that I'm completely over her and have been for the past year or so)....
            Last night she calls me as usual and we talk about the girl she likes and how my mentle health is nowadays (Which is shit but not that bad shit tbh)....
            Then after that she says smth along the lines of "I wanna date you cause you're the perfect person for me" and brings up my confession once again (like ms gurl are you okay)....
            And then she's like I'm not her type but she'd still date me, and once again thta whole wad of bullshit about how I'd be the perfect gf and how id make her forget about the girl....and what do I offer in a relationship....
            And then the next day she's like "oh that was just in the heat of the moment"....
            (And once again keep in my mind that I don't like her at all like AT ALL lol, she's like a sister now)
            Guys I'm just so confused and I feel so uncomfortable lol, I can't even describe it in words....
            I don't know what to tell her so i REALLY REALLY need your help folks....
            Tell me what to do cause this is literally hurting my head....

@bi_weirdo_398 happy birthday to our quennnn

@duckie_da_duck AWWW BUBBA I'M SO FREAKING PROUD OF YOU I KNEW YOU COULD DO IT!!!! YOU'RE A FUTURE  VALEDICTORIAN TRUST ME!!!!
            Trust me Cali sucks ass tbh, I wanna run away as fast as I can from here lol....everybody's just so weirdly toxic and judgemental in a way that does not even make any sense lol....
            Yes kid, join more they help and they're weirdly engaging....
            I LOVE ME QUINCENERAS!!!! (Eventhough I've only been invited to 2 and I always just go for the food the rest of the stuff just bores me tbh with you)....
            Eventhough it's kinda confusing but it totally makes sense lol, just make sure you don't get hurt in the process or anything cause we so do not want that happening in anyway....
            It's okay I don't mind write as much as you want to....
            Well tbh I got constant anxiety attacks the last few days (I have no idea why) and I got scared thinking it was gonna be like the first time and I'd give myself another anxiety attack....but thankfully it's not and I'm better now and haven't been getting them again....
            I'm confused about by emotions and stuff but it's not as bad as it was before and I'm kinda getting the hang of them....
            My relationship with my mom isn't getting better but it's not getting any worse too so we could say that its doing good ig??
            OH AND I JOIN COLLEGE SOON!!!! (NOT SO SOON BUT YEAH HEHE)

@bi_weirdo_398 I'm doing well! I got good grades on all the midterms for my high school classes, even the ones I thought I failed, which is a little unfortunate, since I got a 91 but exempted, so my grade got placed as a B instead. Sigh.
            My friend who got grounded got grounded again while still being grounded, which is annoying, since it's been like two months. He also saw some kid get beat up at his school and might have to give a statement to the cops. He says he hates California. 
            My Stanford classes ended! Yay! Time to apply for more and confused my friends with how I spend my time!
            I got invited to a quinceñera. I'm looking forward to that but also... not. Because dresses and makeup and dancing.
            A girl I thought hated me doesn't hate me and now we're (sort of?) friends? Her ex is my [girl I'm technically not dating]'s ex so I make jokes about that. 
            I wrote a lot. How are you?

@duckie_da_duck AWWW THAT'S SO CUTE<3333
            Yeah me too tbh....
            How are you doing lil kiddo????

@bi_weirdo_398 You deserve it.

@bi_weirdo_398 She called me her girlfriend today and I said "Since when are we dating?" And she looked at me confused and said "Didn't you call me your girlfriend this morning?" I might've, I honestly don't know, I thought I said wife but I confuse words randomly all the time.
            I don't really know how to help with your friend since it's never happened to me, but I think it's better that you don't talk to her if it's what helps you control your anger. I don't think you're doing the wrong thing. But hopefully it eventually gets resolved.

@duckie_da_duck nahh you don't need to thank me as your online older sister it's my job to do this for you<3333
            Oh okay then that's good kiddo.... everything's gonna happen in due time so don't you worry bout anything....
            And know that whenever you need me I'm here for you okay?? If you need anything just come upto me and I'll try my best to help you no matter what it is lovely<3333
            Yeah I did tell her I was upset but it's gotten worse because she just can't grasp the main point of the situation and it's literally getting on my nerves at this point and I'm kinda not checking her messages or anything cause if I do ik I'm gonna snap and say smth that we both are gonna regret later so it's better if I don't pay much attention to it for a while and try to focus on my own emotions and shit like that and try to understand what's going even better cause if it keeps going on like this instead of getting better and coming to a good end it'll start getting worse and I don't want that happening so yeah let's see what happens now tbh....

@bi_weirdo_398 Okay, first of all, thank you very much for the advice, I will definitely keep it in mind.
            I don't think it's really a fleeting crush, since we've been flirting for like, months, and our messenger pigeon/wingman/friend keeps saying the word "love" when he talks about her feeling for me, which seems a bit extreme, but whatever, she's not the type of person to faceplant into UHaul Lesbian type romance.
            I also don't generally know what I want. I liked her for a few months last year, but she got a boyfriend, so the crush faded, she broke up with her boyfriend and a few months later my brain started randomly going "She's very pretty and kind and likes holding your hand you should kiss her", so... Yeah. Back to the crush era. But I don;t really know how relationships work. And I am definitely NOT going to confess/ask her out first, we already act like we're dating, and we both know we like each other, so it's kind of pointless. But thanks.
            As for your best friend, and you might be annoyed at this very obvious answer, but ✨communication is key✨. Unless it's like, very obvious what she did wrong, you should tell her, especially if she's actively trying to resolve the conflict and identify and correct her mistake. You could just tell her you're upset, and she might let you have time to work out your feelings or something. 
            I'm doing well. I had a cold but I'm fine. Skipped school. Might be bad for my bio grade but whatever.

Thxxxx lmao  but I was talking abt the ratio of  women to men [insert crying laughing emoji]

@dreamingofsaturn7 nuh uhh it's just as amazing as you are boo<3333

@bi_weirdo_398 lmao fr for me it’s like >1%

@Todesser13 I didn't know him one bit, so I'm really thankful for that nor had I ever listened to his songs like ever 

@bi_weirdo_398 i thought i didn't know him. It turns out I knew a lot about his songs I just didn't know it was him.

@Todesser13 DUDE SAMEEE!!!! I found my person y'alls lol

@bi_weirdo_398 real love isnt about meeting requirements, but is about being valued as a human being despite your faults, so if you only feel loved when you do/achieve certain things such as grades and tasks then that's not 'real' love
            
            If you are surrounded by a bad circle of people in general, its not your fault
            
            Your family i get- you can't change the family you were born into. I know this sounds corny as fuckk lol but before you actually prepare to love someone outside of your family try to love yourself first
            
            And also are you really going to allow the assholes that had nothing better to do in their lives than to bully you, make you believe that you aren't worth living?
            
            I personally know people who have been feeling the same way as you who have gotten into habits related to physical exercise and it has helped them a shit ton in their confidence and overall attitude in life
            
            regardless of what ayone has ever told you, Im glad you're herexxxx

@bi_weirdo_398 Love is conditional. That's generally a fact. The difference is that some people have different conditions, and different conditions for different people.  And personally, unless someone does something to piss me off, I don't not love them. I don't want this to be seen as me encouraging you, but this feels like it could be interpreted as that, so I might delete this later, but I think you're 100%, completely right. I'm not denying that. But I hope you realize that whatever conditions I had for you, you've definitely surpassed them. So please don't do anything to yourself.