big-ass-simp

im back bitches

big-ass-simp

I've been really in the mood to write recently, so if anyone has any ideas for fanfics or something that you want written, lmk. I might make a one-shot book or something. I'll I'll the fandoms that I have listed in my bio (ones I in and ones I'm not in anymore) and I'm probably not gonna do smut, but I'm down to write pretty much anything else. lmk if you have an idea :))

big-ass-simp

does anyone have any good comfort fanfics that I could read after a mental breakdown? preferably x reader, the other person doesn't really matter.
          
          
          I'm finally in a place where I'm not fully numb anymore and I've been crying a lot and I haven't cried this much in years, so and comfort recs would be great (on any website, doesn't have to be wattpad)

big-ass-simp

I just need to vent a little, feel free to ignore this
          
          
          I've never been someone's first choice, I've always been the second choice, more of the last choice. I think that's why I read X readers, cause I am only going to be someone's first choice in fiction. even with my  own family, it's always been my sister over me. same with my friends, it's always some else in the friend group or my sister before me. even for anyone I've ever though of as my best friend, it's always someone else. when I finally got to meet up with someone who I considered my best friend for the first time, she spent almost all her time with my sister. I just want to be someone first choice. I just want someone that will care that much about me. that's never going to happen though. it hurts so badly,  but I just have to suck it up and act like I'm happy. I should be happy for everyone else, but its so hard not having someone that will put you above everyone else.