gaysmutupyourass
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I'm hoping you don't have access to this account anymore so you don't actually have to be reminded of me, but I needed to say I am genuinely sorry. I think back often about what I did to you. I wish I didn't fuck you up. You meant a lot to me, I never got to meet you. I was in the state beside you, and all I could think of was how shitty of a person I am. Or at least have been. I'm trying to be better, it's hard and I hate that it's hard for me to be a good person. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry I let my life affect your mental health because I made the stupidest choices. I really wish I could do it over, maybe we'd still be friends, maybe we could've hugged and fell over like sll those meeting your internet friend videos. Maybe. I've loved you, i hope you're still alive, and i hope you love living, even though right now are probably your hardest years if the shit I did to you doesn't beat it in your mind. I hope i was the worst you had to experience, because it means everything else can't hurt you more, and that your life would 9nly be better than what I gave you. I wish that for you, you already went through too much. Thank you for being un my life. I'm sorry I turned you into a lesson I forced you to learn. I'll never be able to give back what I took from you, so I keep it, because it doesn't seem fair for it to be forgotten. I could never forget you. I'm sorry.
I'm even more sorry if you do see this, I don't want to rehash a wound, I just wish I could properly tell you I regret the decision I made that day with her. I am sincerely sorry.
