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bilsblurryworld

!! A REMINDER TO ALWAYS CHECK ON YOUR LOVED ONES, AND EVEN STRANGERS !!
          
          the joyous ones, the depressed ones, the ones that seem to have everything going for them, the ones that always seem to have something going wrong, the ones who ask for help, the ones who dont ask for help, the ones that answer texts and calls in an instant, the ones that take hours to answer, the ones who sleep or stay home all day, the ones who are always busy out and about, the ones with good grades, the ones with worse grades, the ones in therapy, the ones that arent in therapy, the ones that go to school every day, the ones that miss so many days the truancy officers call.
          
          check on EVERYONE, no matter how okay they seem, because i can assure you that if something were to happen to them, youd feel as though its your fault for seemingly never being there for them, even when that isnt the case.
          
          a simple, "are you okay?" or, "do you have anything you want to talk about?" can SAVE A LIFE.
          
          a person taking their own life is devastating, no matter the type of personality they may have had in life. even if they were a terrible person when they were alive, there were still people who loved and cared for them who now have to live without them, grieving. NEVER say youre glad somebody took their life, because there will ALWAYS be people affected by it.
          
          !! SUICIDE IS NOT THE ANSWER. IT IS OKAY TO ASK FOR HELP !!
          
          if you experience passive or active suicidal ideation, reach out to someone. anyone. passive is just as dangerous as active.
          
          your pain is valid. your trauma is valid. you are valid. you do not need ptsd (post-traumatic stress disorder), mdd (major depressive disorder), schizophrenia, or any other disorder to be suicidal or hurting. your pain is your pain, and sometimes there isnt even a reason for it, but that doesnt make it any less exhausting or real.
          
          !! YOU ARE LOVED. THERE IS SOMEONE OUT THERE WHO LOVES YOU. DONT LET THE BLINDSPOT OF YOUR MIND CONVINCE YOU OTHERWISE !!

bilsblurryworld

A LIST OF SUICIDE HOTLINES AND EMERGENCY NUMBERS DEPENDING ON YOUR COUNTRY:
            https://blog.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines/
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bilsblurryworld

 rest in peace, aj. we all love you, and we will forever miss your bright presence. you brought light and joy to everyones days, even those you werent the closest to. im sorry nobody saw your pain and suffering. no one deserves to live without a shoulder to lean on. im proud to have been your balayer and anchor, as you were a fantastic climber. thank you for treating me like a person when others didnt, thank you for accepting who i am despite the city we live in, and thank you for including me when i was left out. thank you for being you. i wish i had gotten your number so we could have been closer. maybe things would be different. maybe i wouldnt be writing this right now. alas, i didnt. i wanted to so badly, but i was afraid. i am so, so sorry. you meant more than youll ever know. you were an amazing guy, and you made high school just that little bit more bearable. keep fighting those fires, and keep that sky pretty for us. rest easy, we will always love you. 
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