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So.. This is the original owner of the account. My other account was logged out, and I forgot my password then my phone broke and got a new one and it was a whole mess, but, good news, I'm still going to work on past scars as well as no life since those two were and are still my favorite things to work on, I will possibly rewrite most if not all of the chapters for them but um.. yea! I'll actually plan them this time so they won't be as shitty I guess?

So.. I've been thinking.. My depression has been shit, and my mental health isn't exactly stable (is it ever tho?) So I'm gonna take a break from writing, I might come back during summer break and write what I can (which will be a 3 1/2 month break) so.. Yea! I apologize if you were looking forward to my shitty fanfic updates (I hate them but... Well people have to start off somewhere.)
          
          so.. Uh.. Yea! See you in 3 1/2 months? (I will still be reading things so if you see me in a fanfic I'm just taking a break from writing)
          
          You can still message me if you're having any issues, I'm not exactly the best at comfort for something's but I will try my best!

Vent:
          
          Could we just talk about the fact that we are 7 days into 2024 and shit is already going south? Like famous gacha creators are quitting, the fact they found like 27 bodies behind a police station in some place in Mississippi and the families have to PAY MONEY TO GET THE BODIES SO THEY COULD HOLD A PROPER FUNERAL and 1 mother was calling everyday for six months about her son and they know where he was and didn't tell her that he was buried in the back yard of the police station, a guy jumped over the stand to fight a jury after his sentencing.
          
          What the fuck is going on? The air is different? I don't think we are going to make it as a society at this point.

Vent
          
          I got into an argument with my mom about my room, my stepdad AND my MOM. THE PERSON THAT GAVE BIRTH TO ME. Are both calling me lazy and a spoiled brat, not only that but my stepdad broke his shin the morning he told me that he was going to take my phone if I don't get up before 6:30, my bus gets here at 7am and it takes me 5 minutes max to get ready in the morning, do you realize how crazy that is? And I'm always out the door by 6:55 if not, then I'm still not late because of the fact I run to the bus and I've missed the bus like 10 times this entire year and that was only at the beginning of the year, my mom refuses to talk to me unless she needs to tell me something, the last time I had a genuine conversation with my mom was 3-4 YEARS ago. Around the time she got with my stepdad.
          I'm currently suicidal and having thoughts of cutting, (I'm working with myself on that and I have help from a friend) and my mom is talking about how I'm being lazy when in reality I'm just tired of doing everything and my depression is through the roof right now and so is my anxiety, I'm treated like a servant by my family, constantly standing and running around because I'm the only doing shit, when my mom can walk perfectly fine, the only person that is an exception to this is my grandmother and that's because she can't see much and her feet hurt if shes on them too much.I'm 13, I turn 14 in December. I shouldn't be listening to my mom argue with my stepdad because he was flirting with another woman for like 6 months.
          I'm mentally 27, I'm fully aware of all of my surroundings, but God forbid I don't hear my stepdad ask for something WHILE I'M OUTSIDE. My mom wonders why I hate my stepdad, he does nothing besides sit on the couch and play video games, he doesn't do shit around the house, he lectures me and acts like my dad when he's only around to help with bills, so yea! Welcome to my 2024! It's shit!

I'm not going to be updating any of my fanfics because I just put together that I'm the backup friend... But my mom also wants to go see the lights today and my birthday party is tomorrow so I'm going to be busy anyways

Sorry if I don't update anything tomorrow, my mom and my step dad are fighting and I'm trying my best to not step in because I know my mom can defend herself. Again I am so so sorry, I'm also kinda overwhelmed with school and some friend drama and shit.

Is it just me or does life just don't seem as fun anymore? Like sure there's some fun Things but other than that, holidays don't feel like a special day, they feel like days where I'm forced to talk to people, I feel like I'm not the only one but I probably am, I've also noticed that my 6 year old cousin wasn't really that happy on Thanksgiving, I feel like we all are just done.

I just got my Spotify wrapped and my top song was home to hell by (someone that I can't remember the name of) 
          
          Shut up it's a good song ok? Also apparently, my #1 artist is Deverkate so...

My sleep schedule is already fucked up now, it's going to be a bitch to fix it

So, my mom and stepdad were talking about the inequality of men and women, and at the end of it I was like 'why is this even an argument?' 
          
          
          I don't like gender roles at all, I think they're stupid and annoying, what I also don't get is racism, sexism, and homophobia. Like why is it a thing? They are their own people and it's their life, why are we even bothering people for things that are in their own life? Like if it doesn't affect you in any way shape or form then don't bother them, I think any and all criminals should have the same amount of time for everyone if you did the crime you do the time, you shouldn't sentence anyone because of their gender, also wtf is up with the whole 'women are meant for the kitchen' bullshit? They are people, everyone is a person not some object that you can control.
          
          At the end of the day we are people with our own lives, why are we wasting our breath on someone else's life that doesn't affect you?
          
          All in all, respect every one, no matter their race,sex, gender, or job. It's their life not yours.