I don't think Iill ever be able to think good about myself."you're pretty" sure then why don't I look pretty? Why don't I feel pretty?even pills aren't helping."you're smart" then why don't I feel it why don't I ever do good. Why am I so slow ?why am I so alone.why am I always the bad guy?why is so pretty?so talented?why is she so lucky?why does everyone have good things to say about her and not me? Is it because she's the topper? I feel guilty when I do smth for myself.i can't enjoy smth for myself bcz I feel guilty.why do I have to enjoy I'm neither pretty not smart.when I'm wearing or doing anything for myself I always feel like a pick me or a try harder.why am I so skinny?she's not skinny,she has big lush black and beautiful hair why don't I have it? Everyone has it why not me?I wasn't like this why did I become "me"? Feels like a nightmare I wish I could turn back time and change everything,why ,why,why? Why does it always have to happen to me why am I not smart why am I not pretty why don't I have thick hair why am I so skinny why do I have family problems why can't I take decisions for myself?why am I so immature?why do I act like a kid? Why don't I feel love?how tf am I supposed to feel good about myself when I have the prefect friend who is not me she is someone I wish to be . Bully me about my looks Infront of everyone and when we're alone " sorry ya I don't think you have any problems please don't take it seriously I was just joking" oh!! "Its alright" No ITS FUCKINGG NOT ALRIGHT you make me want to kill myself I've gotten so insecure that I can't even come out of my room without looking at my reflection 50 times. Because of you I hate myself hate myself I hate everything about me You're always there victim why ? You can say smth so rude about me but I? I can't even point out anything about you? great but I don't have other than you you're my best friend why would I ever compete with you? I have noone other than you but you have everyone
