Prapti

I just finished the book.... I don't know what to feel
          
          I was crying so much that I couldn't actually read at one point....
          
          I don't know what to do with my life now

I genuinely can't with Crooked Kingdom I'm sobbing.
          The Kaz and Inej bathroom scene.... I cried so bad...
          
          Wesper finally kiss! Like FINALLY
          
          I'm at the bit where they're going to auction Kuwei. I'll have it finished by tonight lmao I can't function 
          
          I'm just hoping Kaz actually tells Inej why he can't touch people and that it's not her fault even tho I feel like she just knows it's not her fault anyway
          
          Sorry for all the ranting btw

Heyyy so I'm losing my mind over this and can't read rn so without spoilers, can you just answer this one question please
          
          I'm at the point where they're in the cloc tower and Kaz and Jesper have just had a little fight and Jesper's going to talk to his dad. Do Jesper and Kaz make up? 
          
          I'm losing my sanity they better make up and I better have time to finish the book by tomorrow

helllooo
          
          i'm halfway through the second book of daughter of smoke and boneee and it's soooo goooood.... i'm however very mad at Akiva

"Grief is just love with nowhere to flow."
          I found this in a fan fiction I was reading when Tony says this to Peter. Istg imma throw myself out the window now.

Okay, I'm half convinced that even Arthur Conan Doyle wanted to make Sherlock x Watson a thing. The overwhelming EVIDENCE, tho! 
          1. Sherlock calling Watson, "My dear Watson", or "My Watson" or the sweetest sentence, "I'd think I'd know MY WATSON by now", or even "most beloved friend", every chance he gets.
          
          2. Sherlock being insanely upset about Watson getting a wife.
          
          3. Watson saying he'd lay down his life for Holmes, but in the most romantic ways possible.
          
          4. Watson and Sherlock almost dying because of Sherlock's chemical experiment, both almost dying, and Sherlock thanking watson, being all sorry and scared for his "friend's" life, disregarding his own.
          
          I could go ON, but like, who wants to read this shit, tbh. I'm just dying of cuteness over here tho.

I'm sorry for the rant but, I was reading irondad ffs and this just come bursting out of me.
          Ever notice how the love for ONE person was enough to save the universe? Tony loved PETER enough to jeopardize everything he had built, and he built a fucking time machine because his kid deserves better than death. 
          Wjile on the same note, Thanos loved Gamora, but didn't think that the love mattered enough to (what he apparently thought to be ) sacrifice the future of the universe.
          Thanos FAILED in his version of trying to save the universe, because he didn't think sacrificing a person he loved was a payment to heavy to pay for the universe. Tony won, because he flipped off the universe and said, "You're not taking my kid away from me, you dumbfuck! You took him away, but I'm going to bring him back, because I love him, and I don't care what it costs me."
          The purple pumpkin lost, but Tony Stark won, because there was ONE CLEAR DIFFERENCE in their opinions. Tony Stark knew that they didn't trade in lives. Thanos... Did not.
          Thanks for coming to my ted talk. Thank you, everyone, thank you! 
          *bows and exits*

The randomest of thoughts occurred to me this morning, and I thought I'd share.
          
          Not every feeling you feel has a why attached to it. Stop asking people why they're sad, mad, happy or tired. Like, no, dude, I'm not crying because you yelled at me, I'm over that. I'm crying because I just suddenly remembered my entire life, stfu!! (jk, jk, life has been far kinder to me than someone else whom I love very much, but, could not protect all that well.)
          But like, seriously, there isn't always a reason for your feelings. Just let go once in a while and let yourself just FEEL!

Who has been randomly blasting “NO CONTROL” into their ears at unholy hours of the night? Certainly not me; you must be mistaken!
          Also me after awhile, mouthing, “Waking up beside you I’m a loaded gun, ..... Nooo controooollll!!!”

Today, someone asked me if I was okay, over text, because they said they felt like I wasn’t. Istg, I started crying and replied a whole 5 minutes later that I was “fine”.  It’s funny how I keep lying, and then expect someone to see through my lies and tell me that they know better. I create my mess and expect someone else to clean it up when I’m too tired.
          * I suck. *