7/12/16
I cannot believe that Jay has gone. It's been a few days now and I'm still in shock. The only way to describe the pain I'm feeling is heart break. Jay was, and still is, the most amazing, courageous, inspiring, kind and gentle woman I've ever seen. Her children are the most compassionate and caring people and that is a testament to her. My heart is truly hurting, she left us too soon, too young. At the age of 42 she still had so much ahead of her, a bright future. My deepest condolences go out to the family and anybody who had the privilege of knowing her either personally or, like me through her little stars Louis, Lottie, Felicite, Phoebe, Daisy, Ernest and Doris. Watching Louis perform on X factor last night shattered my heart. To see my hero in tears and in pain. The strength he showed last night was witnessed and acknowledged by all who tuned in, fan or not. Millions of hearts were on stage with him last night and we did it together. Jay would be proud. She's looking down over all of us. I can only hope we did her proud last night. Everything, all the disagreements and fights were put aside. the single rocketed to number 1 without any promo from Louis on social media. Every single person in this fandom was there for Louis last night, like a family. The boys came back together for the first time in a year to be there for Louis, like a family. We are a family. We are legends, and legends never die.
Rest in peace, Johanna X
