Ineedholybleach888

Life has been hitting hard but still giving me gift it hurts

Hey my mom is trying to kick me out and I am just 13

How do my eyes look ? 
          
          They certainly don’t look like those I had long ago. Or a year ago or a week ago they look weird you know

I am someone parents kids and all are afraid to be 

Hey if just fúck fück fück fück I want to cry for the first time in so long I love something I am passionate I feel something I am not numb to all I love volleyball I am a newbie and have little time to catch up a become great I am sad I love it I train so hard I feel so sad that I am not great so a practice I do all I have tried many times and left because of COVID moving and stuff so this is my last chance I want to cry a week away from the team I would love to get into tryouts I füccking sprain my ankle it fuckįng hurts and I had freaking improved so fück maybe is a sign that I should quit and focus on my studies and not bother my mom to pay for it or anything and just quit and go back here and there go back to silent close F to that løsee we er who is so scared of failing who is afraid of being normal and average or deficient at things and just be at home all day and philosophy about stupíd things become numb all over again unable to feel and all I just have to accept it that is what it is in store I guess because I tried I swear I do try so why do you do this to me universe to be always nõrmal I I am tired of all 
          
          
          
          
          Sorry nobody will ever read this and I just need to vent because I got no  friends so I love my earrings they are so pretty

Fück I just vented and it fucking Imdid not post so summary persons who took the love of my life (dog ) I will ducking curse you haunt you or beat you up in hell just die bitćh and if you give it back god bless you my love 

This are comments that nobody will ever read and that is okay you Wattpad have always been there when I need you when I just want to do many not so great things when I am sad and lonely angry and all hopeless you are there when I feel embarrassed and everything I read you just why do I keep ducking things up like I just want to sleep for a real long time and don’t have to deal with all things happening and have to decide and chose and think and alll it is so frustrating just way pass is my place to be dumb and rest and not think things true and say the things that come through m mind without filtering them it here just me my true weird self that link you for being you and letting me be me

Bye watpadd I am not deleting you but I will stop reading I am sorry I can't anymore I have to become someone and I can't with you when I am okay again I will. Visit you but right now I can't sorry I can't till I read again love you don't stop being who you are keep writing when I come back I will be not ordinary but incredible and realized 
          With all my love Fabiana 

I have a question tell me 
          
          Did I start getting A’s because my mom stopped beating me 
          
          Or
          
          Did my mom stopped beating me because I got A’s
          
          No feelings  am okay but I am genuinely curious

Hey does anyone want to talk please?