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I miss my big guy. I miss his clumps of fluff everywhere. I miss his prepubecent meaw that never turned into an adult voice. I miss him crushing me under his weight. I miss watching movies with him and I miss how he would watch me play video games and when I got frustrated how he would just purr for no reason. I want him to see my achievements. He was just one month too late. I love him too much to lose him. I'm not ready for him to be gone. I'm still hanging on to the thread that he might just be lost and he's still okay. Two months is too hard how am I supposed to live without you for the rest of my life? What the fuck did I do to get such a punsihment. I'm sorry I wasnt around, he took me away. Why didn't I get more time? Why did you have to leave hours before I got back. Why am I still sad? Im afraid. I've never felt this dull before. Come back, please.

If you're ever feeling down, take a second to remember all that you've done and how great you are. How much you endured to get here. You're allowed to feel sad and your feelings matter. Don't ever feel like you have someone to impress, we're all human and your thoughts matter.
          
          I think you're super awesome and you'll get through this soon ❤ 

Hi!  It looks like you may have read my book Gravity.  In which case, thank you for taking the time, and I hope you enjoyed it  :-)

Look after yourself.
          Its okay to feel bad sometimes.
          Write it down.
          Listen to music.
          Take a breath.
          Count ceiling tiles.
          
          You'll make it.