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i was sad before but now i really want to push you into a well

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Will I ever hear your laugh or see your smile again? Do you remember how we used to play? You were my best friend. I miss holding your hand. Where do we go from here? Will I know you again in this lifetime? 
          
          I cannot bear the idea of never knowing what happens to you. Feels like a book I’ve read a quarter of the way through only to have it ripped out of my hands, never knowing how it ends. Is that what this will be? Will you ever apologize? Am I not worth it?

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Feels like I’ve aged 20 years in two months, feels like I’m much older than I was the last time you knew me. I can smell you on the blanket and the hat you returned. Why didn’t you say hi to me? It was nice seeing you, please don’t call

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I kiss your palm as it touches my face, I tuck your hair behind your ear for you, my thumb traces circles on the back of your hand as it rests in mine. I look into your eyes longer than I need to, longer than I should. Cheers, baby, let’s have another drink.

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I hold my breath when you start singing, just to hear you better. Find me on my knees untying your shoelaces. Find me loving you quietly, steadily. Find my lips on the back of your shoulder kissing you good night. Find me toeing the line, find me between them.
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