blueforfive

Is this real? @Masquarad16 following Mee??!!!
          	I love your books sooo muchhhh

blueforfive

Seeing my past conversation board today made me realise one thing.
          I definitely changed so much
          For good tho
          I'm still frnds with them
          Still avoiding him
          But am not lonely or sad
          I'm happy on my own now
          Is this the character development I need?
          I think yes.

blueforfive

The worst feeling would be rejecting someone you love coz of some other reasons.....
          There is this guy...i like him..
          He likes me too...
          But i had to reject him when he proposed me
          It hurts...it really...
          There are a lot of differences btw us and 
          My father definitely won't accept us..
          Because of a petty issue...my father lost all his trust on me and i don't want to do some other thing which will make me loose him...
          But...i like him...too much...
          We continued talking even after he proposed but... suddenly...maybe I'm overthinking... but...i feel like he is avoiding me...he is not talking much...i hate this feeling...maybe i should let go..
          I want to cry out...but i can't...i promised my mom that i won't cry...so i shouldn't...
          I didn't know it would be this hard

blueforfive

To those 2 people
          I was there for you two whenever you are alone
          Whenever you both are eating alone or doing anything
          I accompanied you coz you will feel alone
          And then
          You see me sitting by myself all today
          And then you guys go on ignore me
          I like being alone but i don't like being lonely
          When will u understand this?
          But being me... If you can me saying you are alone... Whatever the work in doing... I'll leave it and come to you both
          I'm very pathetic and i hate it

blueforfive

Happy Birthday Jonghyun
          You are my moon
          You know I always talk to you 
          Please look after me
          Take care of me
          I'll try my real hard to go through any things
          Just be there for me
          Watching over me
          I love this so much
          My dear moon
          Saranghae-yo ✨

blueforfive

I am exhausted....it's like I am writing exams since forever...within a span of 3 months I have written 2 semester exams and mid term exams and bunch of assignments and still I have 2 left...I seriously don't want to write any more...I am seriously exhausted...I can't anymore...I have been telling myself that these will be over...just 4 more...3 more...but now I can't convince myself...I want to sleep...I want to eat...I am not eating well...not sleeping well...I might go crazy...well...my mom said... it's not only you writing... everyone are writing...I am not talking about about others...I am talking about ME...me...I can't...