Imma rant here.
Because It’s been a minute.
I hate being ignored. I hate going to sleep alone.
The fact that someone I barely just met has been sleeping with me on call with me every night (our record was a 156 hour call), and not my lover.
I’m not mad, I’m just… this is not the week for me to feel so alone. I know responsibilities are a thing, but I’m always able to make time. And no matter how much i say, “it’s okay” or brush the feeling off, it never changes…
Last year of school I did this back to him, but I worked on myself to make so much time for them. Now I feel like my time is going to waste because I’m just sitting here my phone waiting for it to respond.
I just want to know they’re okay… I’m scratching on my phone during every class to see if I got a message from him or not. I never use school as an excuse for my non-response unless it’s really important.
I’m not mad at it… I’m just… I feel so alone and I wish I didn’t have to be… everything hurts..