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is anyone still alive? because I am. honestly words can’t even explain the shit i’ve been through in the last year. if anyone also follows me on tiktok they know about my crashouts about my situationship as well as my other issues. I’m going to be honest idk if I’ll update any of my books ever again because for those who don’t know I’m old af and I’ve began to write when I was 13ish so idk if I’m still inspired or if I just miss when times were easier. I don’t think y’all care about my life but anyway, for those interested I’m on a sobriety journey since I was 14 for coke (am I going to get banned for saying this??) so it’s really hard to be consistent with anything in my life. I’ve been sober for 175 days now so I think I’m getting better since I’ve never gotten this far but we’ll see. I also had to deal with the loss of many people in this year, not all of them were good people but that’s how family works sometimes and grief is a weird shadows that lingers even when you can’t see it. I don’t think I’ll ever update Lost Kids again because the love interest is Carl which obviously now I can’t see myself writing about since he’s a kid, so I think I will drop a chapter about how the story was supposed to end if I can still remember it. I’ll try to update Shadows since it’s my most read fanfic and Leah is such a dear character to me but we’ll see. again, if anyone is still on this app and still reads the shit I write thank you so much and maybe we’ll see each other soon
