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I just want to vent it all out on why can't anyone understand? i'm just a misunderstood girl that wants people to love her and appreciate her but instead people just keeps misunderstanding her and making her feel like trash and unwanted and yet they ask "why do you want to die?" maybe because i'm tired. maybe because i'm hurt. maybe because i want it to stop. maybe because i have no reason to live anymore. i did bad things in the past.....i've always felt like i'm being punished when my mother died......i'm so scared that maybe anytime, anywhere....my father will go too.......i'm traumatized can't they see that? yeah i've been worst nowadays maybe because i'm more depressed than ever. i want to smile, i want to be happy but i don't seem to remember how to do that.....why do they hate me so much?....why do they pity me so much?....why do they judge me so much?.....why am i always the one looking bad when i'm defending myself?.......yet they ask "why are like that?" maybe it because of you! if only....if only people cared and understand me.........i might be different now......but no, this is reality. i'm a crazy ass teen that no one wants to understand, has a really weird personality and always misunderstood as a whore......i just want to be loved......why can't they see that?...