bonnieradm

These last few days writers have been on tge receiving end of several criticisms, majority of them were made to voice out dissatisfaction and impatience. Now, as you have all seen/read, it was insinuated that our creations are of no worth and that attacks against us and our works should simply be shrugged off. Apologies were made for pretense and that was simply rude and idiotic. Instead of outright engaging in verbal discourse, it was decided to hold a 'writer's blackout'. Basically writers will not update their stories until furher notice.
          	But don't worry. Awjay and Mimi will be back with more fluffy cuteness and maybe I'll even update Lost and Found. Maybe. 
          	See you when I see you

bonnieradm

These last few days writers have been on tge receiving end of several criticisms, majority of them were made to voice out dissatisfaction and impatience. Now, as you have all seen/read, it was insinuated that our creations are of no worth and that attacks against us and our works should simply be shrugged off. Apologies were made for pretense and that was simply rude and idiotic. Instead of outright engaging in verbal discourse, it was decided to hold a 'writer's blackout'. Basically writers will not update their stories until furher notice.
          But don't worry. Awjay and Mimi will be back with more fluffy cuteness and maybe I'll even update Lost and Found. Maybe. 
          See you when I see you

bonnieradm

I never belonged anywhere.
          Well, I did. Once. Until it all fell apart in one gigantic mess of should haves and what ifs.
          Then, I was just lost.
          Or maybe I was looking for what I once had.
          I knew that NOTHING could top or even touch what I once had with the people I once knew.
          I knew.
          But I still kept looking like the stupid puppy that I was.
          There was a point when I thought I found it.
          The sense  of belongingness, the security of a solid friendship.
          Until I stopped feeling anything at all.
          And then I realized...
          I tricked myself into thinking it was the same as before.
          The people I hung out with, barely knew me.
          I walked away.
          The next moment I found myself in a pack of five.
          Five, I realized, is a bad number for group.
          There would always. ALWAYS be someone who will end up alone while the other four paired up.
          Unfortunately, that lone wolf was me.
          I have always been second choice. 
          Or maybe, I was never a choice in the first place.
          I know you won’t believe this coming from an only child but there would always be someone more important than me, people whose wants and needs came first (yes even to my parents #priorities) a younger cousin, the neighbor, their other friends...
          They were always catered first before they (my family and friends) would worry themselves with mw and when they do... they see what wrong I did. Never what I have achieved nor what I did right.
          It was very frustrating. It hurt. A lot. But I learned to live through it.
          I never belonged anywhere.
          Sadly, not even with you.
          I know you don’t want nor need me around so I’m doing you a favor by distancing myself.
          I have no idea why I feel the dislike rolling off you - whether it really is dislike or if that is just my paranoia talking.
          I know you talk about me... Just the five of you.
          I know.
          Don’t say sorry. I’ll be fine. Like I always am.
          I just wish you would tell me I am no longer welcome.