booksbygabriel

Hey, my sister just got married a few minutes ago-
          	Wow, what a way to start an announcement but yeah I felt truly happy for her but I also realized one thing I am scared of changes, I panicked so hard when I got the hurtful realization that my sis has bigger priorities now, and that I might not be the first in that list. It's a thing where I live btw that the bride has to care for her groom's side more and I just feel so indifferent... Like I am happy for her, but I lost something that was one of the things I never wanted to let go of. I had a very strong connection with my sister, and now things won't be the same. She will be in contact but it won't be how we used to be. It's like those times when you lost the dearest, best friend of yours, and you are still in contact but things just aren't the same. I held in my panic attack the whole time, I was like "Nuh uh, I ain't crying now at all." but sadly my mother kept going on and on about how she was going now, like wtf... I lost it completely.
          	
          	Tell me, have you every lost something that was very dear to you, and you just didn't want it to let go?

MeEqualsBookWorm

Oh several things lol.  Currently in a similar situation actually.  My sister is pre-engaged (guys bought the ring and they’ve decided to get married but he hasn’t technically proposed). For us, our family isn’t about once you’re married it’s only hubby that matters but my sister is DEFINITELY that way.  One of those girls that gets a guy and everyone else drops off the face of the planet pretty much.  So, yeah :)
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booksbygabriel

Hey, my sister just got married a few minutes ago-
          Wow, what a way to start an announcement but yeah I felt truly happy for her but I also realized one thing I am scared of changes, I panicked so hard when I got the hurtful realization that my sis has bigger priorities now, and that I might not be the first in that list. It's a thing where I live btw that the bride has to care for her groom's side more and I just feel so indifferent... Like I am happy for her, but I lost something that was one of the things I never wanted to let go of. I had a very strong connection with my sister, and now things won't be the same. She will be in contact but it won't be how we used to be. It's like those times when you lost the dearest, best friend of yours, and you are still in contact but things just aren't the same. I held in my panic attack the whole time, I was like "Nuh uh, I ain't crying now at all." but sadly my mother kept going on and on about how she was going now, like wtf... I lost it completely.
          
          Tell me, have you every lost something that was very dear to you, and you just didn't want it to let go?

MeEqualsBookWorm

Oh several things lol.  Currently in a similar situation actually.  My sister is pre-engaged (guys bought the ring and they’ve decided to get married but he hasn’t technically proposed). For us, our family isn’t about once you’re married it’s only hubby that matters but my sister is DEFINITELY that way.  One of those girls that gets a guy and everyone else drops off the face of the planet pretty much.  So, yeah :)
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booksbygabriel

I just went through a full panic moment- and broke down in the bathroom :) After that, I decided to delete the whole book I have been writing, {not the fanfics, my other one which I will publish as an actual book}. I am starting it again now-

booksbygabriel

@MeEqualsBookWorm fr- like I like the newer version way more
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booksbygabriel

@Your_local_bkdk_simp Aww It's fine honey, It's not your fault <3333
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MeEqualsBookWorm

It be like that.  I usually get stuck in a never ending loop of editing but I’ve restarted before too.  I actually think it helps to restart sometimes so maybe it’s a good thing!  The deleting not the panic moment lol
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booksbygabriel

BRO DOES ANYONE FEEL LIKE THE WORLD IS GOING SO FAST I JUST GOT INTO THE SENSE THAT MY SIS IS ACTUALLY MARRYING! LIKE OH MY GOSH, EVERYTHING FEELS SO SO SO FAST AND QUICK!!!

Siya_Shyjesh

@booksbygabriel Thanks❤️
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ItzMeAshx

@booksbygabriel what year is it again? ToT
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booksbygabriel

this message may be offensive 
@ItzMeAshx fr- Me on Sunday: "When will Friday end?"
            My sis was fr judging me and she was like: "This is what happens when someone does no shit in their room"
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booksbygabriel

Another poem I made, which I honestly based it on myself.
          
          She feels nothing- Like an empty book that once had a story of it's own. Emotions buried deep inside until her mind decided to take the throne. 
          Hiding everything behind a dark brick wall, so no one notices a flaw.
          She was told not to complain, since every one of them had it worse. Now her mind mutes her in hard times, not wanting her emotions to disperse. 
          She wears a face made of stone, wanting nothing but her mind to leave her alone. She forgets that she had a life to begin with, and starts to bury herself within. Now she's nothing but flesh and bones, her emotions are long gone.

MeEqualsBookWorm

HOLY CRAP YOU WRITE POETRY TOO??? This is getting scary.  Also, BEAUTIFUL.  That’s a good one
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booksbygabriel

I feel so silly writing this, in my literal Wattpad account. But I have no one else to talk to. I just need someone to tell me I am not wrong. I am so close to giving up and I can't cope with the methods I used before. Everything in my life feels meaningless as I have no idea what and whom I spent my whole life on. I need someone to talk to so badly, that I am literally going crazy. I don't even know if I want to live anymore.

Your_local_bkdk_simp

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