sam

Rest in peace liam. 
          
          This grief is a funny feeling because I know he's done shitty things, but one direction was such a big part of my life for so long. I'm a big advocate for recovery and mental health, I think he desperately needed help and never received it. 
          
          I'm saying this on this account because for those of you that are still active on wattpad, know that one direction was a huge part of my life as a teenager. 
          
          It's such a funny, fickle thing that life really is. I grew up with Liam, and the rest of one direction so I think I'm my head, somehow they were immortal. In the sense that I didn't expect to feel this grief for any of them so soon. I'm mourning liam, I'm mourning one direction, and I'm mourning my childhood. 
          
          The person grieving right now is not 18 year old Samantha, it's 10 year old Samantha who would come home to put one direction on her ipod to drown out her parents fighting. 
          
          Rest in peace, Liam Payne. I hope life treats you better after it than it ever did during it. 

:) first chapter coming so so soon

Are any of you bitches still on wattpad

Not to alarm anyone but I saw black veil brides live last night and it was honestly the best expirience ever (if anyone doesn't know, I've been a fan of bvb since I was 12. But if u are unaware of who it is, the singer is Jimmy from stall <3) 

and if i come back? as bootieluver44?? then what???

catch me somewhere else @catchfirewithme

suprise! just popping in to say hi! yall didnt think i could just abandon you like that, did you?
          so this is just a check in. how are you? did you drink enought water today love? 
          im doing good. trying to get over a breakup but other than that its all good here.

my socials to stay in touch my love, 
          twt: samanthaxirwin
          insta: imtwistinbro
          snap: samantha73006
          tiktok: n0tth1sb1tch
          ok, finally, 
          For the last time (I mean it this time)
          Hello!
          - bootieluver44 

Hey guys! I've been thinking about this for a while now and I honestly don't think in going to keep writing. The reason I write was because I was in a dark dark place and I'm not there anymore. I had no hobbies, no real friends. I really thought I was going to die before the year was over. And I didn't because I manged to claw my way out of that hole I was in. 
          But with crawling out of that hole, I stopped writing. I joined a band. I performed for the first time ever today. I'm enjoying life for the first time I can remember. 
          I think today was when I realized I'm just done with this. I was backstage just living in the moment. Hanging out with the people I'm lucky enough to call my friends (some even family) and I realized. I'm not coming back. 
          Some goodbyes are bittersweet. This is one of those. So don't take this as a goodbye. Take this as a final hello. 
          I've made so many friends through this account. But when one door closes another opens. 
          The door for me writing on wattpad has closed. 
          I'm so busy with this band stuff now I don't have the time nor energy to do this. 
          I have one last piece of advice for you all before I go. 
          Do what makes you happy. Don't let ANYONE tell you what to do with YOUR life. 
          I love you all, 
          And for the last time, hello!
          -'queen bootie' ;)

I gave up my hot girl Summer for someone and I don't even think they feel the same way about me anymore