hey, you don’t gotta read this whatsoever, i just needed to rant a little because my friends take no notice and honestly, they don’t particularly care about anything unless it’s themselves so (:
recently i’ve left college, i had been struggling a lot and decided that for now it’s best for me to leave and start again next year. before i left there were a few issues between me and someone who i used to be close with, and we fell out over a really stupid thing but it’s whatever, it happens, you know??
since then, whenever i was around said person wouldn’t ever talk, go near me, anything like that. they’d be perfectly find whenever i wasn’t around, but as soon as i entered the room they’d stop and wouldn’t look happy at all. now that i’ve left, i’ve had a friend tell me that said person is actually happy and talking loads and has gained confidence. i’m happy for them, don’t get me wrong, but it just makes me feel like throughout everything, i have been the problem from the whole situation. i feel so shitty because of it, if i was causing that much of an issue for them then perhaps i should have just left the college earlier.
ugh, i don’t know how to even explain it, i just feel shitty and i tried talking to a friend about it and they didn’t really say much other than “at least you don’t have to deal with them anymore” which kinda made me feel worse for some reason.. idk.
anyway, thanks if you actually read any of that, i appreciate it (:
stay safe, stay rad.
~xoBS