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@bora-bish I'm doing good, I'll get admission in a good college, just waiting for my CUET results and on 26th my bday..hehe XD

Bruh where the hell are you??? T_T

@bora-bish exactly! I hate NTA mann! 

@bora-bish I don't wanna brag about it but no matter how much my mom or dad scold me for things they never ever pressure me or like you know stuff say crap to me about not gaining certain marks yes they do get disappointed but they only motivate me...they say this is not the last!!!
          
          Even for my 12th boards mumma said that you'll score above 75 percentage na.. that's also very good! 

TW: suicide, death
          
          AIR 1 ranker got 5%ile in first session and 100%ile in second.
          you expect me to believe that??
          whats more believable, the one who scored 75%ile and 93%ile or this fucker who claims to score 300/300 when he was scoring 12 marks in the first one??
          
          who deserves IIT more?? those in reservation who ticked 10 quetions and are happily going to Adv because they can do the same there or those in general category who got 94%ile barely passed the cutoff and are contemplating whether to take a drop in academics or a drop from the building??
          
          whats the point of studying for this country if all we are gonna get is depression and consolation while these fuckers cheat and get into their dream fucking colleges and we are left to mourn our friends??
          
          when was this so socially acceptable to die for a fucking exam?? why is this so normalized?? why isnt anyone saying anything about this??
          
          why are students always the problem?? why are people sitting in their high ass jobs from their high ass colleges calling us melodramatic when it is thy who created the drama??
          
          fuck this shit and fuck the whole education system because it is you who have caused the death and their blood will be on your fucking hands motherfuckers. you wont ever find me do anything anymore for this government, this fucking country because all they care about is voting quotas and money and schemes and popularity and i aint giving them none of that.
          
          call me anti-india for all i care im officially done.
          
          r.i.p. to all my friends who decided death was better than the pain of not qualifying for this exam and fuck NTA who decided colleges for cheaters are more valuable than our lives.

TW: suicide, death
          
          yk the thing that i most hate about JEE/NEET is not the fact that they are ridiculous, that the cutoffs are insane, and even not the fact that so much talent and passion is lost because of the fucking reservation.
          the thing i hate the most is that because of these fucking bastardous exams so many people aren't with us anymore.
          
          and even more than that i hate the fact that the signs were there.
          i saw you happy. happier than anything you've been. you asked us to have a voice call and said lets talk forever. i shouldve know that you said forever because you wont be here long.
          and now im crying alone sitting here listening to the recording you sent because thats the only thing left of you and your stupid voice which i always said was pathetic but god how i wish i could hear it say something new.
          
          its not even crazy anymore its like everyone expects the deaths and there is less crying less questions because everyone knows why they did what they did and everyone says exams arent important it doesnt decide your future but no one asks what can we do to help them.
          
          so many gcs just barren because im the only one remaining.
          
          NTA released the result at night and the next day no one was there to talk.
          
          i am surrounded by ghosts of people who think they failed but in reality the society failed you and im so so sorry i couldnt be there to save you. im so so sorry i couldnt call you and ask you to eat the leftover ice cream in your fridge because you like it and it helped you cheer up. i hate this system so much but more than that i hate those who left because why didnt you wait you couldve waited just talked to me or anyone or something why did you take such a permanent decision for a failure which isnt even a failure why leave us alone in these gcs without your stupid dumb fucking jokes and idiotic laughter and senseless advices.
          
          this whole system is fucking pathetic and i hope people see that we arent being overdramatic its the system that needs to relax.

TW: suicide, death
          
          i qualified for JEE Adv.
          two years of dragging my ass to study for this stupid fucking exam and i passed on boundary. i called my friend to tell her that i've qualified. she didnt pick up her phone.
          her sister called to say she didnt make it.
          i knew they were talking both about the exam and her life.
          
          hours later i was sitting in my room mourning for people who i started to count but there weren't enough fingers.
          one night was enough to upturn my whole world.
          ive seen death so many times its starting to feel normal but it shouldnt. we shouldnt just sigh at so many lives just...gone.
          
          i was still crying when another call came. he was still conscious and called the group chat and said his last words before we desperately called the police and hospital and everyone but it was too late.
          i woke up in the morning, my parents were happy, crying that i qualified, saying all the best, apologizing for screaming at me yesterday when they called me a failure and as much as i hate my parents my heart still broke when my mom, teary-eyed, asked me to not do anything that could hurt me even if i failed in the future.
          i tried calling all my friends, those who picked up i consoled them as they cried. those who didnt, i cried for them because i have no idea what is happening on their side.
          
          a few of my friends were beaten for their result.
          one of my friends ran away and got in an accident.
          
          so many losses and all because of one exam. we used to be horrified to even think that someone could die for an exam and now that it has become a reality its unnerving to see so much normalization about it.
          
          why isnt everyone freaking out over it?? why arent people calling out NTA for it?? why is an exam so important than a person's life??
          
          but no one says anything.
          everyone just mourn quietly.
          
          my phone rang again and im scared to pick it up. i call them again. they said congratulations on the result. i didnt respond.
          
          the next call said he didnt make it.
          i keep crying.

sign this petition everyone or wattpad boutta face some serious issues ngl
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okay wtff is going on with this orange website???
          taking down whole ass stories for no reason at all, and now deleting pms??
          
          whats next? dictatorship? cant edit stories? cant post stories? make this the new facebook for all i care wtff
          
          why you trynna be the next ao3 wtfff

my dearie sexy cutie lovely HUMANS.
          ik it's been hella long since i said i'll come back officially, but things haven't gone really good and i've just gotten some peace of mind to finally interact with all of you guys.
          
          i guess i will update a lil bit about what has happened.
          i'd told yall about Kavu right? my gf?
          on 14th feb, 2024, she unfortunately passed away after being admitted to the hospital. she was suffering from glioblastoma, brain tumor, stage 4.
          i decided to isolate myself from everyone, which in hindsight was a bad idea but nonetheless im kinda fine now.
          
          competitive exams are shit, we had first attempt on 27th jan, my second attempt was a few days ago on 6th april, and now if i qualify for jee advanced i might give it on 27th may. after that, if i qualify further, i might start counselling for colleges,  admission and everything so i am not quite sure if i will be able to start writing again anytime before august.
          
          there are a lot of things in my life currently which i have to fix and im so sorry for anyone whom i couldn't fulfill my promises. i acknowledge it was my fault and im taking full responsibility.
          
          hopefully things can improve.
          
          sincerely,
          your potato;