borahae7jj

No update.... I'm sorry guys i broke my promise. 
          
          
          My sorry wouldn't be enough but it's the only thing i have for you guys. I'm not in my mind space right now. My grief is finally sinking, i don't want to end this year.....i don't want to welcome the next year. It will finally be true that he left me.... That he is no more. At least this year, he was with me for a month....a month but after today.....tomorrow he wouldn't be....from tomorrow.... Fuck this.... Please please i don't want this... I just want the time to pause because i would be content that for whole this year, 1 month i had him.....i didn't even grieve properly..... It hurts... it hurts so bad. 
          A month more and there would be his first anniversary......i..
          
          I don't know how to handle this...where to put all this love.....i miss you i miss you so bad.... My feet wouldn't take me to your room coz i wouldn't find you there..welcoming me, crying with tears of joy that you dada(granddaughter) has became a doctor...that how proud you are of me...how proud you are of your son that he made your dream come true through his children....how you want to bluid a hospital for me. 
          
          I shouldn't have returned back to my university......papa told me to stay more days....i should have listened to him.. I would have save you....if only i would have listened to him....your dada would have saved you..... I'm sorry..I'm so sorry.... It was just 7days baba..... I received your news.... I'm sorry....I'm so sorry. 

I'm so so sorry, my Dearworths. I had a writer's block for a long tym then i wrote something but it's hardly 1k and now I'm so busy, my schedule is so hectic for next 2 weeks......i will really really going to try my best to give you guys an update before this year ends. 
          Hopefully your author will not disappoint you. 
          Gratitude for having such an immense patience. 
          I will try my best. Fighting!! 

Heyy Author....
          How are you??
          Haven't heard from you in a long time so was just wondering if you are fine...

I wrote a new story or you can say a oneshot in compensation of "I'm A Fool Of Love For You" Story. 
          It's gyuhao and wonhui story and it's quite....nope full of angst and I hope My Dearworths Like it!!!! ( finger's crossed and I'm nervous.....why I'm nervous.....aaahhh) dearworths do tell me how you like this oneshot. 
          
          
          
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/1441926581?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_published&wp_page=create_on_publish&wp_uname=borahae7jj

DEARWORTHS!!!! MY DEARWORTHS YOUR AUTHOR IS NOW A DOCTOR.....A FUCKING GODDAMN DR. 
          I have no words.......but finally finally I'm a doctor. 

MWOYAAAAA!!!!! WOAHHH DANGKGJBV 4K READS DEARWORTHS!!!!! URIIIII DEARWORTHS!!!! WHAT IS THIS??? WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING... I'M...I'm...yyou guys are really something, you gave your precious love to this story .....'our' story. What I'm feeling i can't convey it in words. My Dearworths, my little cheerleaders...you guys are really amazing. I.....uh... 'a long sigh', i want to express my gratitude but thank you is not enough for you guys. I love you guys really i really really love you my dearworth.  represents warmth, friendship, and care. This orange heart of mine is just for you my DEARWORTHS 

I...... I really don't know what i did to deserve you guys. I don't really think I'm worth of all your encouragement My dearworths....... you guys are awesome like really really awesome. I never thought that I needed to hear this but when I read your messages.....such a nice gentle feeling I felt. My dearworths i hardly ask for piece of encouragement, I never thought that one day I will receive this until when i did..... i don't have words and i can't even describe you guys how thankful I'm of you.
          Yesterday I wanted to cry out of frustration but Today..... Today My Dearworth I wanted to cry in happiness. I'm really lucky nah? To have you guys....... you guys are a whole different breed but my breed. Can i tell you a secret.... I smiled brightly with moist eyes when i read my dearworths messages at my recent update. Do I really deserve your love guys? Slowly and steadily i came to know why Idols feel so grateful of their fans..... even though you guys are my reader, My Dearworth I really really can't thank you enough for giving me such a beautiful messages, for supporting me I really get lucky. I will make sure to make you guys proud of me...... you guys already made me proud of you now it's my chance.
          
          So sometimes I will drop here on conversation section just to give you guys a little snippet about how I'm doin' and what's going on with me. Till then bbye........Gomawo jjinja gomawo.