bore_reader

Isn't life a funny thing.... Down with dengue

bore_reader

I don't wanna crate a new place where I can voice out my thoughts. I choose here because it was here that I first became true to myself.
          
          With each day that passes, I keep wondering where I did I go wrong. I drove my closest friends away, any new people I come across either ends it with me or just... What am I doing that is so wrong
          
          I can't keep any human contacts except for my family and that's okay I guess. But to a point.
          
          I have flaws. But those flaws aren't like back stabbing or talking behind someone's back or even I don't know what else but those aren't my flaws. 
          
          I keep on giving but it isn't enough. Kindness doesn't always pay. What else is lacking

BloomyWoomyGirl

hi....

bore_reader

@BloomyWoomyGirl saja jawab gitu. Gurau sikit. >. < I was born and raised in Kuala Lumpur. I'm 25. Where are you from? Working in kl or dari negeri lain?
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BloomyWoomyGirl

@BloomyWoomyGirl hihi...tahu malaysia...asal negeri mana? sy dh 32
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bore_reader

@BloomyWoomyGirl from Malaysia. I'm In my mid twenties. You?
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holabitches513

Hi i don't know who you are or what you been through but just wanted to say you're not alone and i hope that you're doing okay

bore_reader

@holabitches513 I want to appologise for the super duper late reply. I have this bad habit of telling myself I'll reply in a bit then get caught up with stuff and in the end, forget. Someone wrote a message on my board then seeing your name under that person's message did I remember I haven't replied. I'm sorry
            
            I'm okay. Been hanging with the fam and cousins so that helps me cope.
            
            How are you?
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holabitches513

@bore_reader you don't know me and im not really sure how i stumbled upon your page but i just did and to me it totally makes sense what you are saying i just remember seeing your page and reading your post and its weird cause I usually never read peoples post but when i started reading i just got worried because of the timeline of your post and thought something happened to you i guess 
            That's pretty weird of me but yeah i just wanted to know how you were doing
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bore_reader

@holabitches513 I didn't realise someone actually would  read my posts or... How do you know of me?
            
            Hi :)
            
            I'm surviving. I think as days goes by, any pain that I feel, I get use to it. At the end of the day, I won't let it consume me but it's there. Some days are stronger than other days.
            
            It's funny though. I'm not sure what you're referring to and I don't know if what I say makes sense to you.
            
            But thank you. Thank you for reading and responding.
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bore_reader

Living in Malaysia is already hard enough. Living in a closet is ridiculously tough. I know I may not be a vision to the eyes but I have my qualities. I wish someone would date me and then tell me. What is it that I'm lacking. Get to know me and if at the end of it, Im not the person you can see a future with then tell me what is it that I'm lacking. I just wanna have someone in my arm that I can spoil and say 'you breath life into my life'

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Have you ever felt like your heart is about to explode if you don't shout at the top of the world that you're gay. It hurts. Not having someone you can call syg or love. It hurts when all you want to do is love someone so much but no one to give it to. For me, I try to find alternatives to fill my hole, like reading good. Books. But I seriously can't find good malay gxg books. So now I'm feeling the hole. I'm shivering from the pain.