bossman42

God after playing Until then I need to put the emotions I felt into something. Even if my writing is terrible.

bossman42

Out of boot camp and now learning new things about my job. Class hasn’t started yet and I’ve set my room up. I am starting another story, In hopes of actually continuing it. 
          
          Lately my mind has been failing me, I forget where I am and the time as well. I start seeing things that I know is in my head. What I mostly see are painting of people I’ve met over my years traveling. 
          
          Maybe writing will help me with this. I’ve recently played a mobile game called Matsuro. It’s a small horror game, it’s about a painting that is alive. I liked it a lot, I remember that I used to love painting. 
          
          Sometimes I feel like it’s all one big lie, I’ve been known to be a compulsive liar. It’s not that I want to, it more like a defense mechanism. Whenever I’m in a situation I’m struggling in, I lie. To others, to my friends, to my family, to myself. 
          
          I can’t tell where the lies end and where they begin. The head injury I got doesn’t help much, but I try to keep my head on straight. I don’t even know why I’m writing this now. I’ve never actually told this much truths before. 
          
          This is getting too long, maybe I’ll start posting more later on. But I know no one will see this. If you are reading this, have a good rest of your day.