bottlebongsandbenzos

i know i’m a little late to the fucking party but forgive me bc i haven’t had time to catch up with the sidemen but - “when i saw you at my wedding i almost called it off” HELLO !??!?!?!?!? YALL ARE F A K E FOR NOT TELLING ME ABOUT THIS HE IS DOWN SO BAD FOR HARRY LMAOOO

louis sang chemical by post malone and hearing him sing “you turn around and fuck out all my brains” at 6am has k*lled me. write that on my gravestone

misha collins saying that if “cw hadn’t been so homophobic, dean would’ve been balls deep” is insane actually

two edited versions of old oneshots are also back up !! wooooo !! i’m so back babyyyy

skdjfhsksk just posted the first chapter of my new larry fic !! excited and scared and nervous but yayyyy ahhhh !! :) <3

loool hi !!
          
          i’m so sorry that it’s been so long, i still miss you all very much !!
          
          i know that i’ve not kept to my promise of rewriting/remastering my oneshots so i’m here to just explain a few things.
          
          the past two years have been weighing very heavily on my shoulders. so much has happened in my life and in this world that have destroyed almost all of my will to write. i’ve been grieving losses that have caused insurmountable pain and the world has witnessed even worse.
          
          writing just seemed so insignificant to me. and being honest, the thought of it was harrowing. for so long.
          
          see, back when i was updating every couple of days, i didn’t really carry the weight of the pressure that comes along with writing because i didn’t have much of an audience. being honest, i didn’t think i’d gain any audience at all, really. now that’s not to say that the audience i did gain wasn’t the best i could’ve ever hoped for because you were (minishaw cult, i love you !).
          
          +…

i hate this app so much i just wrote such a heartfelt note to post and bc it exceeded the word limit, it just erased the whole thing.
          
          brb gonna scream into the void and then rewrite it

also, update ;
          
          i’m still very much in the process of finding my writing style and rewriting every oneshot from CHASE. i haven’t forgotten, nor will i ever. i love every single one of you who read and will read. tysm for every bit of support u gave me last year. i hope to update very soon. though it might not be CHASE, but another (larry stylinson) oneshot series.
          
          but that’s only a possibility. no promises. i love you all <3

i hope everyone had an amazing time throughout the holidays !! ily all !!

ok so, i feel like u guys deserve an explanation as to why CHASE is now unpublished, and after all the love it’s received - all the love i’ve not taken for granted, at all - i don’t want anybody to maybe think that it’s a permanent thing.
          
          it’s not.
          
          BUT
          
          i spent a whole lot of time thinking about what i wrote, how i wrote it. and i know i could do better. i think about how i worded certain things and i just, d o n t like the way i wrote certain stories.
          
          so i’ve decided to take the time rewrite them how i wish i had. make them longer. easier to understand. add details i was hasty to do so until now.
          
          it’s gonna take a LONG fucking time but i’m so ready to get back into writing properly again. and i’m hoping it’ll rekindle my motivation to write new oneshots - minishaw AND larry.
          
          i can’t thank you all enough for the support and the love for those oneshots. i really do appreciate u all <33