Em <3

Do u ever read a book half way through that have to set it down and then end up losing it? Cause I did that today and now I’m pissed

I am currently laying on my hard floor, idk why
          
          Anyway, join my discord:D 
          https://discord.gg/A8UN6CQ76P

I u feel down mentally for no reason. It could be because I had five tests today or because of just random reasons, idk

Just had a break down, feeling good

Using mainly spoons we’ll dig a tunnel under the city and realize it into the wild
          
          
          Tell me if u know what that’s from

I’m sad
          
          
          There’s this streamer I watch. His name is RanbooLive and they just released merch. I asked my dad if I could get it and he said no. Yeah, it’s expensive. Yeah, I’d repay him back. But he still says no. And when my brother asked for stuff he gets it, I was to cry. I’m p*ssed. I just wanted something and I’d pay him back but yet he still says no and my brother just got something yesterday from complaining. I feel unloved once again as the middle child. 
          
          If ur sad today, why?

My mom easily brought me into this world but I’m ready to bring myself out of it. My brother both physically and mentally abuses me, I need help

Y’all this weird feeling just overcame me. My guy friend is starting stream when my dad rarely lets me be on the internet at all. His mom made a deal with him that if he started doing more chores and helping around the house a lot more he could buy the stuff for it, and I’m here, my dad not letting me stream and we’re the same age. He won’t even let me have flipping tiktok. I guess what I’m getting at is that I’m not sure if I want to be happy for him or jealous that he has parents who support him in what he wants to do. This is my dream and my dads stopping me from doing it. So I might be jealous or something idk:(
          
          
          And now I just lied to him about not feeling well and that I’m going to bed. 
          
          And to make matters seem worse for me, there’s some server I’m in that I feel ignored in:/ 
          It just makes me feel sad that I’m not seen by other people( not trying to come off as bratty or anything)

My cat tried to eat a hummingbird but my sister saw and so she took the hummingbird inside and my dad is at work and doesn’t know so we’re keeping it in the bathroom and feeding it sugar water and letting it sleep.

So I decided it’d be a great idea to come out to my dad as bi this week, I painted the flag on a canvas and now all I have to do is tell him, but I’m nervous and keep backing out. Halp:/