Madison W

That crippling loneliness demon that's always there but you forget its there and accuse yourself of faking it and then you realize it's there and are like oh

My cousins were over this weekend and it was ~chaotic~
          1AM was always the earliest we went to sleep, and one night we turned on flashing rainbow lights and music and we danced and then pretended to sacrifice my youngest cousin when he lay down on a spot of blood on the floor.
          Next day we rolled each other down the hill in a tube, and chilled in my grandparents apartment yelling random things off the balcony. We also filmed a horror movie for fun lol.
          Just random chaos ig lol

Not me hiding in the locker rooms because my best friend is gone and my anxiety is too bad to do gym without emotional support :/
          
          Wow two announcements in one day. The rapid shift from not using this site to suddenly being overly on it. Who knows

Me: eating cereal at the table
          Cats: watching me
          Cats: slide closer
          Me: eyes narrow
          Cat: elegantly stretches head towards my bowl
          Me: *angry chicken sounds*

Ahhh I got a haircut yesterday and now my hair is so short and androgynous I love it
          
          Anyways I've been have gender confusion and sexuality confusion stuff, but I think i might possibly be a demigirl? Maybe???
          
          Yeah heh idk but oh well at least I have cool hair

AHHH I’M SORRY I HAVEN’T RESPONDED TO LIKE ANY OF YOUR ANNOUNCEMENTS 
          anyway hi glad you’re here

Guys, I will be trying to return because apparently people actually notice when I vanish?? hehe thanks guys
          
          I realize I've missed a lot of stuff so if you wanna talk or something I'm gonna be answering my notifications now :)
          
          Hope ya'll are alright and have a good day

Okayyyy hi guys
          
          Back to school already, so that sucks
          
          Also having several crisis's about my identity so that's always fun
          
          But hi guyss

Jeez, really sorry guys I didn't mean to vanish
          
          Been a bit of a chaotic summer, my mental health is at a steady decline, so that's always fun
          
          Hope you guys are all okay I've been thinking of you

Okay guys I'm having a small crisis.
          So basically my super super toxic ex-friend who very much damaged my mental health, right?
          I remembered that we both made jokes about 'bouncebirb' after we saw a funny gif.
          I just realized that she fucking was part of my username, she came up with my username
          I'm trying to resist the urge to break my own fingers because of this
          I hate this so much.
          I wanna change it now.
          What do I do guys?
          Have any username ideas that have the same vibe as bouncebirb?