Bleed in Blue

every failure hurted as a fan.
          every cover drive.
          every agressive send off.
          every self doubt.
          every century.
          
          the man who made people fall in love with the longest format of cricket.
          
          20 june 2011.
          when he debuted against west indies and my 6 year old self had watched him before carrying sachin tendulkar on his shoulders during 2011 worldcup. in the test even his place wasn't fixed.
          
          and one of the greatest player shaped himself on that west Indies tour back in 2011.
          and became my ' god'. 
          
          i have followed you from there captain.
          i have lived through you when they were burning those posters just because you lost the final to a certain neighbouring country.
          
          i have followed your journey when you made this Indian cricket team realise that . yes.
          yes we could win the test matches on Aussie soils.
          
          you made them believe that test cricket was the most beautiful format of this game.
          you became the face of this format.
          you became the face of billions of heart.
          
          and now you're gone.
          given up on your promise.
          
          you are just gone.
          and took this heart away as well.
          maybe it was easy for you.
          but as a fan.
          
          who have been admiring you.
          cherishing you.
          using you as the mental health escape.
          not for just few years but 14 years of me from 19 years of my life.
          
          you're gone.
          just with a social media post.
          
          and you have taken away the soul of this team in whites.
          
          people will forget.
          people will carry on with their lives.
          players will come.
          new captains will be made.
          but you ?
          
          you will always gonna be " Greatest of all time and greatest treasure of the whites for India".
          
          unfair as a fan.
          that i didn't get to cherish a farewell match just to live through your last moments in whites.
          
          but maybe just maybe.
          this was the end for me too.
          
          Hope you get whatever you desire.
          
          and maybe in some another universe. i will get to live through you once again.
          
          
          V.K. 269.
          signing off.

technology is growing rapidly. i wonder why they haven't created something like a ' memory alteration controller' or something like that where - 
          
           we can be left with some peaceful, cherishable moments of life, and maybe then i could be able to delete the past two weeks.
          
          i feel lucky for those who are the recent fans.
          who haven't lived through their careers. who didn't followed them since the start.
          
          you guys are lucky.
          
          because i have lived this player.
          i have worshipped this sport.
          i have breathed the name of a certain failed captian.
          and no words, no combination of any dialect or language or alphabet would be worth of explaining the memories I have gotten in the 14 of me watching him and this sport.
          
          

Bhikaristan and the audacity and hypocrisy of its people and actors.
          i swear to lord, i don't think these people have even a little bit of shame.
          
          their army is killing our soldiers. they are the one attacking the religious places and civilian areas, and calling us coward. 
          
          when all we did was destory their terrorist bases and actually they should thank us! for doing this for them clearing up their garbage, what they should have done long ago we are the one's doing it for them.
          
          cleaning up their bloody country from the terrorists and criminal organisations. we never attacked their civilians and religious places. its not our fault when they are the one's hiding those fuckers inside a damn mosque.
          
          and if anyone is coward its them! hiding their fighting jets through their commercial flights by not closing their airspace for the passanger fights! so ofcourse India can attack and they can find a new way to frame us of killing their citizens.
          
          worry about your country little kids instead of coming on social media and calling us and our country coward.
          
          Damn and fuck the Pakistani actors. 
          padhna seekh lo, news dekhna seekh lo fir aa kar social media per rona. 
          

Some people here are posting about ' wanting peace ' and how war costs nothing but destruction.. 
          
          like shut the hell up.
          
          this is what we have been doing since 1947.
          we were living in peace, we never initiated any kind of war or unrest from our side.. and whenever we try to just give them what they have given us.
          
          people here start screaming about peace.
          
          we weren't the one's to attack on their innocent civilians and people.
          they did, poonch, jammu, kashmir, pathankot, jalandhar, Gujrat, jaisalmer.
          
          we targeted the terrorist bases in their country. 
          They are the one's who are eager for war. and that's what we are going to give them.
          
          so whoever is suddenly so worried about innocent lives being in danger?
          go and ask the family of the one's who were forced to read kalma. who were shot dead in the open just because they were hindu not just for first time but for a really fucking long time.
          
          trust our forces and army and government.
          
          

16 october 2024.. Chinnaswamy stadium in Bengaluru. 
          
          India played its first test match against Newzealand after defeating the Bangladesh in two test match series. 
          
          and that's where it all started. 
          the worst phase of Rohit Sharma's test career.
          
          it started when during the first test match against Newzealand. after scoring a 50, the ball rolled towards the stumps and a proper unlucky dismissal took away everything. 
          
          A worldcup winning captain had to announce his retirement through a freaking social media post who gave two ICC titles to this nation in span of nine months.
          
          why? 
          
          because they need a young captain. 
          suddenly this 38 year old became unworthy of even getting a place in the test team. 
          
          suddenly, a worldcup winning captain was forced to retire from test cricket sitting in his home and had to announce it through a social media post.
          
          just two series... 
          where not only the captain but the other 10 failed with him.
          where every department whether batting, bowling, fielding was a complete disaster. 
          
          the writing was on the wall since boxing day test VS Australia. but after they got champions trophy, 
          
          this 38 year old unworthy player and captain deserved some respect. 
          deserved atleast one last series before saying goodbye.
          
          no one realised that Melbourne cricket ground was witnessing last of a man in whites which gave so much to this nation, to this board.
          
          you were a dream.
          you were a solace and you have been the escape of comfort. you have been the young boy in 2007 playing in the blue ' sahara jersey' i saw for the first time in TV.
          
          and then it became the habit of this 6 year old since 2011 to worship you. 
          
          because you were worthy.
          and you will always be worthy.
          
          your numbers won't decide that.
          your fitness won't decide that.
          
          neither a group of 5-6 people sitting in a room with different perspective playing their own politics will decide that.
          
          you will always be worthy. 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          

hi love 

its been more than enough. and everytime something like this happens we are the one's who only react.
          its high time now for us to actually take some good amount of action that these people think million times before trying to spread in the kashmir valley, or any part of J and K province.
          
          its not just about siachen glacier.
          its not just about sending illegal infiltrators through the PoK line. 
          manipulating the civilians against their own people and government.
          giving them money, using them as their weapons.
          
          Making the little children learn violence filling up their minds with hatred and disgust in the name of religion.
          
          like we don't know what the people of Kashmir are going through?
          hotels, resorts, restaurants, everything is once again closed. basic employment of the people there is snatched. 
          
          why everytime our normal citizens suffer? 
          
          naming the religion as most superior in a country where secularism is practised.
          its really the time when the approach of ' attack is the best defence.' should be taken seriously.

Still not able to process the situation of this country. 
          whatever happened on 22 April isn't for the first time .
          it has happened before, by the same neighbouring country and the country forgot about it. 
          
          Mandai massacre Tripura 
          Bombay train bomb blast
          kalyan train bomb blast 
          2000 terrorist attack on Red fort
          2001 indian parliament attack on New Delhi
          the 26/11 attack on hotel Taj. 
          Pulwama attack.
          
          and now - 22 April 2025 pahalgam attack.
          
          the way news is surfacing. the way those women are crying. for their husbands, brothers, fathers.
          
          this is such a horrific fact that India is now one of those countries which has been through terrorist attacks for most number of times by A CERTAIN NEIGHBOURING COUNTRY. 
          i don't have any fear or shame in saying that this neighborhood is the reason People of Kashmir will once again suffer .
          their state's economy will suffer.
          they will be seen as enemies in their own country.
          they will be blamed in their own Homeland.
          
          these people are the reason a certain religion is always on target. 
          Terrorism has no religion.
          this is a loss of humanity.
          
          I pray for those family members and the people who have lost their lives in such henious act may their soul rest in peace and they get the justice they deserve. 
          
          these people will pay their prices. 
          
          
          

heyyyy how r u ??? long time

Does anyone miss test cricket like me these days?