these are poems for me to vent.
I actually like a majority of them.

the good ones come from when I get really into it and I'm sad and need to tell a story.

besides poetry, I draw, twirl baton, dance, run track, read, listen to music, take pictures, etc to calm myself.

now about me... well lets see
I'm female
I'm 13
I'm insecure
I'm hoping to lose weight
I'm trying to recover
I have "an eye for photography" some people say
I'm in love with my EXboyfriend. his name is Troy and he helps me with so much I love him to pieces and he's perfection. but he left me. 

the first time he asked me to be his girlfriend was 3.15.13 and we dated for exactly 1 month and broke up on our 1 month because I was getting bullied and I didn't know what to do:( the second time, 6.11.13 was the time I knew I was a stronger person and could handle the hate. I still get hate today  very harshly but unfortunately I self harm to cope.

on 11.11.13 (aka my 5 month) my boyfriend broke up with me because "it would've been easier on our relationship if [i was]n't so messed up" let me just tell you he struggles with anorexia and he is the biggest hypocrite because I was always there for him and he was never there for me. so "all wrong (missing you)" is about him and it makes me want to self harm again but you know, were friends rn and we might get back together but I have to get better first. so that's what im working on rn while also trying to get skinnier. im scared in this time while im recovering he is going to find someone better. i mean not as fucked up as i am. im so done though. its only been a few days and I can barely handle it. ive been more than a friend to him since march 2013 so I have no clue how to talk to him as a friend. I mean what if I fuck it up and then were not even friends? id be gone. i mean honestly, hes the reason im alive. so ha, fuck my life </3

well our would've-been-6-months is today and he kissed me yesterday. i hate mixed signals :/