Mood Queen

Sweet jesus-

I REMEMBER U

Happy 2022. See y'all in another half a year or so-

Heyyyyy.....how y'all doin? ......so....uhhh....you know....issss been a good whileeee....ehe....love you....and uhhh....I be on discord and genshin (sometimes) so uhhh.....I'll pop in.....also Stoliz you fuckers. I'm with that shit.

I'm back. I play Genshin now. Because my gf wouldn't stop talking about it and when my ass is confused I start asking fucking questions. I'm AR fucking 30 now and it's been a few months. I play on the European server now so pbth. The lag is incredibly nasty on my laptop.

ong I'm just tryna get shit https://webstatic-sea.mihoyo.com/ys/event/e20210428invite/index.html?utm_source=share&utm_medium=link#/GC31WX5AHN
          
          Also FUCKING 400 FOLLOWERS  love y'alll! I know I'm not active like....at all. but I do be lurkin!

Paste this on the 10 nicest peoples profiles and if you get 10 back then you are really special. have an amazing day.❤

oh shit. It's been a while since I've been on. Daaaamn. In any case, my asexual friend who I had a crush on since I met her said if she had to date anyone, it would be me. You know, we take those kinds of wins. She also said she was willing to be in a poly relationship with me rhgtrgn holy fucking fuck!
          
           But I'm not gonna force her to do something uncomfortable. Because that's wrong. Love should be mutual! remember that, chirren.

@AriReeneh5   @Hedwig649
          
          *large inhale* I need french halp. Subjunctive with conjuntives.

So when I, personally, fail a test I fucking cry. Because I've equated failure to not being good enough. Because of my mom. Who's always complaining about my grades being B's a such. Low or high. It made me feel horrible. Like she was going to say something. And she was sitting there watching. I could have done so much better if she wasn't watching me. And she's gotten into a habit of watching my screen when it's around 12 or something trying to be nosy. 
          
          So when I started crying after I failed the test, she went to tell my dad "oh she must have a horrible grade. Of course she failed it, I watched her." And that only made me cry more. Because Not only can I not meet the standard expected of me, I can't even set the bar for my own fucking standards. I don't fucking live for myself. I live so that they can dictate my life. I don't know what I want to do. I do as I'm told and work towards that goal even if I don't want to fucking do it because I don't have a choice. Nothing in my life is a choice except who I talk to and who I fall and love with. And most times, even that turns to shit.  Anyways, I went to cry in the bathroom while looking in my dyer for clothes so I could shower and cry myself to sleep. The usual. Then my mom asked me to show her my grades, of course being a nosy bitch. It was an 89, which I already felt horrible about because it wasn't a fucking A like they want from me, but I thought it was gonna drop my grade down to a 70 or something. It was an 88. 
          
          And then the bitch told me to stop crying because she doesn't expect me to be perfect, but she mocks me and ridicules me every time I'm not. My dad said he was glad I was upset because the feeling is supposed to drive you to do better. But I still feel like it's not enough. Sometimes I feel like I'm not enough. Like me being myself is never enough for anyone. But I know I have some amazing friends. And I appreciate them so much for helping me through it all. Especially when I came out. So Thanks!