Lexi

DMs are down again, but my user is Crystal Pokedude 

It is done

Look, if anyone else here knows what its like to have someone fake caring about them, it's me.
          I've faced it so many times.
          Friends who turn on me in the blink of an eye.
          Popular kids pretending to like me so they won't be seen as the kid who bullied when really they don't give a crap.
          A friend who's girlfriend when as far as to accuse me of a felony to try to send me to prison only to fess up and get a smack on the wrist and let by.
          I've seen it all.
          I understand.
          It's sad how the world works.
          People don't change unless they have a reason to.
          And sadly, he doesn't see you as a good enough reason.
          Meaning the mother f*cker is blinder than you even know.
          He's not worth it.
          Your a good person and a pretty good writer if my opinion matters to yah.
          If he's not willing to stop his crap he's not worth it.
          Love is a two way street.
          It takes two people to keep the lights on.
          And when your people like us, we've been the only ones keeping the lights on while the one we care about doesn't try.
          It's a two person job.
          And as shown by me.
          You try to keep it up forever you'll just strain yourself.
          Don't strain yourself over a guy who doesn't give 2 sh*ts about you.
          Let him dig his own hole.
          I hope this helped, I'm not the greatest with motivation, Y'know.

(Don't mind my shitty writing)
          
          You broke me once, the blames on you
          You broke me twice, now the blames on me.
          But If you ever think you're gonna break me a third time,....well honey, in this fight, I will never admit defeat
          
          The first time you had me hooked, drunk on what I thought was love. 
          Then u decided that enough was enough and you weren't "satisfied'' with how I wanted to be loved. 
          
          My simple and small requests, became challenges to you.
          You say you don't show affection and emotion in public, but what are any of our friends gonna do???
          
          I came to you in my time of need, and all you did was push me away.
          When I wanted to end it all, you decided that no matter how much you put me through, I was here to stay
          
          You put up an act, some sort of show
          When others were here, our relationship seemed to grow
          But the second they left, I became trash, and in the garbage i needed to be thrown
          
          I finally said no, that he needed to change or get the fuck out of my life cuz I don't need this pain. 
          
          So it ends, but I'm still slowly dying.
          Within two days youre with another girl and I'm somehow left crying.
          
          We finally talk it out and now we're back together. 
          Its fine for a few days, until I suddenly become a stranger.
          
          I want to give him one last chance, one last try.
          But then someone else came into the situation and I was feeling butterflies.
          
          I realized what we had was just some sort of game.
          And in the end, I wasn't the one to blame.
          
          I planned on leaving, but at what cost? 
          Would this "new" guy mend my broken heart?
          Which was now shattered and torn apart
          
          Now I'm in this situation, do I stay with no problems or leave with complications?
          
          

Hey, yah need any help, I can try to be emotional support.
          It's better than trying to fix my own impossible depression.

1 in the morning!!!!! 1 In the fucking morning!!!!! I'm am finally going to bed at 1 IN THE MORNING!!!!! Wtq is wrong with my sleep schedule??

Anyone know how to get out of being an extrovert for more than two hours?? 
          Or is it like mandatory for every introvert to have a weekend where they have to be extroverted or they like die or something????

2 AM!!!!!! It is 2 in the fluffing morning and I'm still up doing HOMEWORK !!!! What is this???? Why must I suffer​??? Why does it take so long to write a fluffing essay??? Kill me!!!!!!!

Two more days before hel-- I mean school. Yay. Now I gotta start making the list of people I have to kil--- I mean give a pat on the back with a knife.

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