you don't need people in your life to make yourself feel better, if they make you feel like sh*t, but have been your friend for ever they are TOXIC, if they make you feel loved and happy and then break your heart, but you still love them they are TOXIC, get those people out of your life. i know it might seem hard, but it will make you so much happier. put yourself first, because you are the most important person in your life. i love you.