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Third and final part of this long and crazy update…
          
          I had made it 2 1/2 years of this pandemic without getting Covid, my dad and I were the first people on either side of my family to get it actually. My mom has maintained her negative results luckily and so has everyone I had been around since being symptomatic. Luckily my dad and I are fully vaxxed and boosted which has helped and we seem to have gotten a mild strain. Being quarantined with my dad is definitely what’s keeping me sane. We’ve watched Marvel movies, Star Wars shows, our favorite cooking shows, we’ve cooked, played games on my Switch, drank, and laughed our BUTTS off. Granted I’m irritated as hell that I have Covid while my best friend is in town since they’re only in town for two more weeks, I can only hope I get past this as soon as possible.
          Oh, and let’s not forget Roe v Wade was overturned so what a great time to be a women in America. Fml… I’m so legitimately scared for my future but now’s the time to fight back and get loud and that’s what is happening/what will continue to happen. I seriously just cannot believe that it’s 2022 and we’re going back in time with women’s rights because it won’t stop here, next are LGBTQ rights and more.
          Anyway life is weird right now but yup…

Part two of this long and crazy update…
          
          I had work on Monday but got to see two of my oldest and closest friends before going to a bar with, you guessed it, A and S. Though I was tired from work, it was a very fun and chill night that ended with us getting tipsy Taco Bell. The next day, I got to spend almost the entire day with my other best friend (K); she fixed me a charcuterie board, we drank a tad, we lounged by the pool, and we went out to a nice dinner and a bar where her boyfriend (J), another friend of mine, was able to join us. The cherry on top for sure was running into A and S downtown while K, J, and I were heading to my car. 
          I worked on Wednesday which went well but I decided I was gonna stay home afterwards that night since I had been pulling many late nights surrounded by working 12 hour shifts and I was running myself ragged… or so I thought. At karaoke I had sung 13 songs, 10 of which were in a row causing me to have basically lost my voice the next day though it persisted but that made sense. On Tuesday, I had a bit of a stuffy nose that wasn’t going away but that lined up with my yearly allergies. Then, on Wednesday evening, my dad started feeling off as well which was when we started to get a bit concerned. When I woke up on Thursday, I awoke to the news that he was Covid positive and my mom, who only came up for my birthday and has been staying at my grandma’s to take care of her, was Covid negative. The next obvious step was for me to test which came back positive very rapidly.

Long and crazy update alert (although let’s be real, that’s basically the only kind of update I do) but this time it’s extra long cause I need to get this out (this is only part 1)
          
          The past week and a half has been a combo of one of the best, most confusing, most exciting, most disappointing, and overall odd as a whole that I’ve dealt with probably ever.
          Wednesday the 15th was the day my best friend (A) flew in from Oregon and I got to see them and our other best friend (S) that day, as well as the day after since it was S’s 22nd birthday. On Wednesday we went out to a nice dinner, and on Thursday we hit the LGBTQ club here in town. The day after, on Friday, I had work and I was pretty wiped out afterwards so that’s all I basically did that day.
          Now for the weekend… Saturday the 18th was the precursor to my 21st birthday that Sunday. On Saturday I redyed my hair and went out shopping with A before running home to get ready for karaoke that night. Karaoke with my parents was incredible and ran until midnight which was when our waitress/bartender brought over five “birthday shots”. One for me, one for each of my parents, one for her, and one for the karaoke DJ (who I’ve known since I was 15). We proceeded to have cake and I had three mini drinks (a peach cosmo, a sex on the beach, and a vanilla screwdriver) and two more shots (a pink starburst shot and a green tea shot), all of which ended up being on the house because it was my 21st. Afterwards, my best friend picked me up so we could have a sleepover at their house which was amazing and led to us getting lunch, on them, the next day at one of our favorite restaurants. On Sunday after going to lunch, A dropped me off at home so I could do presents with my parents and spend some time with my dad since it was Father’s Day. That evening, I ended up barhopping with A and S where my dinner, three drinks, and one shot were all covered by other people.

I am so dead. 
            I’ve been working 48 hour work weeks for like a month now after consistently having almost only 24-36 hour work weeks for like 3 months. I’ve also had to emergently work a few 12 hour overnight shifts in the past few weeks which kill me since I usually work 12 hour day shifts. I also might have to work 4 weeks of 60 hour work weeks starting at the end of this month, but I’m praying I can stay at 48 hours instead. 
            There’s also a chance I’ll be working on my 21st birthday (which is in 6 days), my best friend is coming to town for almost a month in just a few days but I’ll be working around 70% of the time they’re here, and I’ll be working on my family’s yearly birthday bash so I won’t get to see everyone like I was really hoping to. 
            My anxiety and overall mental health has been ROUGH but I’m trying to power through. I am seriously looking forward to Thursday though because I have therapy that day and it should be the first day I’ll get to see my best friend since November and one of my other good friends since like early February. 
            I’ve been feeling so burnt out though like, I normally HATE and cannot stand unopened notifications, but lately I’ve literally just let them pile up on here and TikTok and whatever because all I wanna do after work or on my off days is shut down, read on AO3, listen to music, and ignore the world. I haven’t even been able to sit down and enjoy any Marvel or Star Wars show/movie despite those being like my comfort entertainment. Sometimes I actually get concerned about myself when I think about that but oh well. 
          Anyways…

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          You got me right with the pfp

Wow. Today was rough. This was by far my worst day at work in the 2 1/2 months I’ve been working there.
          The son of my employer visited and for those of you who don’t know, I live in Florida and the Don’t Say Gay bill passed recently which is extremely intolerant, homophobic, and gross. Anyway, so he came to visit his mom for lunch and at some point he led in to this ‘passionate’ 10 minute long disgusting rant full of homophobic, transphobic, intolerant, anti-mask, and more kinds of comments along those lines. 
          I was HORRIFIED. I was two rooms over and could hear every word so clearly. By the end of it, I was almost crying, I was shaking, and I was having a full blown anxiety attack. It took me a solid 3 hours to recover enough to feel good about the work I was doing since I was just barely getting by during that time. 
          I’m so sick of hateful, intolerant, ignorant, and all around rude people like that. I am a proud bisexual and demisexual feminist woman who is an ally of all other LGBTQIA+ individuals and every POC. I swear for every step forward we take in this world, we take 3 steps backwards (cue the unintentional Olivia Rodrigo reference). I’m just over today. I’m so mentally, emotionally, and physically drained.

Life with work and family and more has been so crazy lately but I feel pretty good about how I’m managing it. I’m looking at going to Universal and/or Disney this summer which is super exciting. Though I really do wanna go to Disney I’m currently leaning towards doing at least Universal because I’ve been on a HUGE Harry Potter kick lately so lmaoooo we’ll see.
          Also speaking of Harry Potter, I found out my parents’ houses, patronuses, and wands and I have to say their houses surprised me but their patronuses and wands certainly didn’t.
          
          Here’s theirs and mine:
          
          Houses-
          Mine: Slytherin (minor Slytherpuff) (I’m a Pukwudgie at Ilvermorny which is similar to Hufflepuff from what I know)
          My mom’s: Slytherin (I expected Ravenclaw)
          My dad’s: Ravenclaw (I expected Gryffindor or Slytherin)
          
          Patronuses-
          Mine: a Dun Mare
          My mom’s: a heron
          My dad’s: a Newfoundland dog
          
          Wands-
          Mine: a Hawthorn wood wand with a unicorn core that’s 14 1/2” with a quite bendy flexibility
          My mom’s: a Cedar wood wand with a unicorn core that’s 9 1/2” with an unbending flexibility
          My dad’s: a Walnut wood wand with a unicorn core that’s 10 3/4” with a rigid flexibility

I hate daylight savings time, like I feel off kilter with time and I work tomorrow. I also really am not in the mood to work tomorrow, I just want to hibernate for a week. I’m just mentally and physically exhausted, all while lacking motivation outside of a paycheck.

So the past week has been a combo of wonderful, exhausting, and heartbreaking. 
          I got to travel this past weekend, see one of my oldest friends that I hadn’t seen in 2 1/2 years, see my cousins who are basically my siblings, go to a Renaissance Festival, and more. Then I worked the day after I got back from my road trip, had one day off (though it was filled with chores), and worked the day after that (both days being 12 hour shifts). Then yesterday was filled with me being exhausted from the past 5 days and that brings me to today. 
          Today marks 2 years since my family lost my grandpa and I miss him with every fiber of my being. I miss his countless stories and little quirks that made him who he was. I wish so dearly that I could tell him everything I’ve been able to experience and what I’m doing now. I’d give anything to sit down with him one more time but I know he loved me and was always proud of me. I found out today that he always associated the song You Are My Sunshine with me and it makes me wish I could’ve sung it for him just once…
          Today was also the day that we found out my uncle passed away last night after spending almost 2 weeks in the hospital. He and I weren’t super close but I loved him and I always loved swapping/sharing theatre stories with one another since he was the only other person one my dad’s side who was involved somehow in music and theatre like me.
          Anyway, it’s been a long week and I work another 12 hour shift tomorrow so I’m just looking forward to Sunday.

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          Hare Krishna