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Do you ever feel like you're in a one-sided friendship? Like you always have to message them first because you know if you don't you'll go weeks or months without talking. And when you do talk it feels like they're never interested in YOU or they're only asking the same "how are you" questions. And you want to wait to see how long it takes for them to realize they haven't spoken to you but you're scared that you'll lose that person. Idk what's going on with me right now. I just feel like people don't like me at all and they're only trying to be nice. I want to say something but I don't wanna get my feelings hurt and I feel like it's not my place to bring it up even though it is. I always wanna give advice but I never follow the advice I give to myself. Gosh I fucking hate myself, but I can't bring myself to hate the person that makes me feel this way. Probably because I know they deserve more than what I can give them. I already know I'm not enough. But I just wanna know what it would take for me to be enough for once in my life. Just once I wanna know what it feels like to genuinely make people happy. To bring a smile to their face without trying. I don't even know why I typed this. It's not like anybody cares anyway. 

LOOK THIS LUCAS MF GOT MY SERATONIN LEVELS GOING THROUGH THE R O O F

I feel like nothing is gonna work out for me tonight computer wise so I'm gonna eat a croissant with chocolate frosting and try not to cry about my lost Sims 4 files (˘･_･˘)

Having my face up on my profile was fun while it lasted but I think I'm gonna go back to hiding behind my kpop bois ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Hey you! Person! 
          
          Read all of it! I mean it! 
          
          If you were murdered, I wouldn't be at your funeral..... I would be in jail for killing the person that killed you.
          
          We are true friends. 
          
          We ride together. 
          
          We die together.
          
          Send this to all the people you care about including me. After reading this letter, you must send this to 15 other people including me.

Now all I have to do is change my bio aesthetic 

I WANNA PUT MY FACE AS MY PROFILE PICTURE BUT I'M INSECURE AND PARANOID .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.

The thing I love about writing is that nothing is impossible. Like the impossible IS possible. If you wanna walk outside and see a spider singing off key while it rides a pig like a cowboy, you can do that. You want a horse to bake cookies and give you a pat on the back and tell you everything is okay even when it isn't? YOU can do that. Writing is like a dream and I swear I fall in love with it more and more everyday. If only I had original ideas and stuff to write about ಥ‿ಥ

hey hey thank you so much for following! Please do check out my aesthetics and vote if you like them, it would mean a lot to me<33 have a great day 

Does somebody ever indirectly hurt your feelings so then you get sad but then you feel like you shouldn't be sad bc they didn't mean to hurt your feelings or they don't even know they did it