i’m so sorry i haven’t been updating, everything is currently getting to me and i just fully broke down today in my room and i don’t know what to do now, i just feel like a burden to everyone and i don’t deserve to be where i am in my life and it’s just so hard trying to live up to everyone’s expectations and it just hurts at this point and i don’t know where to go anymore i don’t even want to be here at this point i’m sorry for not updating like i should be