Nowadays, life feels like a frustrating mess. Sometimes it feels like I’m surviving only on Taekook, BTS, and Wattpad stories, and I don’t know how a person is supposed to live like this. My career is a complete confusion, and I have no idea which direction my life will take. So far, everything feels exhausting and frustrating.
I feel like a useless, unemployed person who has only wasted her parents’ money and damaged their reputation. When I hear someone say they’ve failed as a daughter, it hits me deeply, because I feel the same about myself. I can’t provide anything to my people—no security, no pride—only shame. That thought hurts more than anything.
I’m not saying I want to die. I don’t want to commit suicide. But the truth is, I’ve lost the spirit of living. I’m extremely tired, and even though my mind hasn’t completely given up, my heart feels like it already has.
Right now, I don’t need advice or motivation. I just need this truth to exist somewhere—because this is how I honestly feel..
