omds lovely I am SOOO sorry that happened to you!! That is sooo cruel it is definitely normal to not be over it, especially something so trust breaking. Trust is something that takes time to build and when violated it isn’t just time going by that will fix it, it takes them working on proving that they are safe people to you and ur nervous system again. Like they are fighting against ur real memory n experience of them doing something opposite to what they say they are to you and until (if they ever) reach that point where you feel safe again